Emo~~

一早蒙烟茫茫，看到比云顶还猛～有够蒙的～～
很晕很晕～
然后很emo~~真的很emo~~
压力很大，今天要有6张不然就要跑mobile roadshow~
TT
这种天气这种心情 我真的很辛苦～
压力～大的可以压死我？
甚至我还想到什么时候我会突然失神而死？或者心脏病爆发？神经错乱？真的大吉利是阿～
噗～
pui~
不懂是不是看家有超男看多了幻想能力很好～想了几种很安详的死法～
脑部有问题哦？
我到底怎么了？
很想暂时睡下抛开一切烦恼
离开所有压力～
我到底怎么了？
又开始哭了？
够了@@
烦了～～
累了～～碎了～～
无奈人生日子就是要过～


我想今天是我最倒霉的一天～
我尽量让自己看起来不那么勉强～
serve customer~smile~~
but all is 'wan kat' de customer~
前提是不要买又要问 问了又不要 不然还把传单推回放去你的柜台～
我真的够了～
受气啊～
尤其突然杀出一个顾客不要拿传单，走开后倒退回来骂我？
虽然我增经也被顾客骂过 其实roadshow always happend~自己知道习惯就好。。。不要在意 毕竟那么多美容院 一定有不爽的顾客～只是 ，之口气～
她倒退回来说u orang punya promosi memang sangat menarik ~tapi pergi sampai sana u orang maki i sampai betul x anggap i orang manusia~terutama kg tak turun u ini slim ar apa apa slim punya orang ingat hebat sangat u orang bukan manusia ar maki orang itu la ini la apa pun la x pergi tratment x blh la makan x blh apa keep slim~i dah pergi banyak tempat dah~sama je~keep slim ni~~then can feel her voice-suara dah meningkat~i jawab balik kak betul pergi keep slim kajang keh?she answer i pergi keep slim la i ada package la,dekat kajang sana~keep slim
wtf~~i betul marah ni..many salon at kajang ok~nt only keep slim la~make sure  u scold ngam ppl~she say dah banyak la apa la~finish scold n go~hello ~u hormone x balance o~shit~~

Emo plus kena with orang like tis i edi boh mood~~mata dah merah la~but i wont cry out~fuck~~
then non stop serve customer~
non stop giving out leaflet~
i wan sales~i need sales~
in my heart i know if i no sales ~
no hit~i have to go  mobile roadshow alone~
i don wan~
but i have no chooice~
i have to~
fight~
no any feeling~
even terhantuk jari macam bengkak i still no feeling~
even is was painful~
hungry?i aso no feeling wan to eat~serious~
around 1 plus  still no sales~go n buy rice n eat~RM9.90!~walao~~a little bit rice n cheese chicken~fucking expensive~
i no idea wan to eat wat just follow feeling n stop n buy this~coz new stall~metro point my favourite ban mee edi zap tat y now nth to eat~
starbucks?x ada tat mood~snowgurt?i got think  wan buy n eat but my body too weak n hard to breathes today~heart aso like abnormall today dunnno wat wrong~scare eat jor cold think i will suffer~TT
give up even i know this two things at mpoint is my favourite i eat wil happy a bit~but now reallynt a good timing~
sometimes will dreeam ppl sayang me take care me tell me dn wan work aso ok~but in real i hate it~i know now wat can i do is work hard n find more money for my future~
i cant be like tat cant be tooo weak~i must strong~independent~
i know many ppl say i dunno tis n tat very cha la~
i know i cant~
june edi i nvr go learn anythings~nvr upgrade myself~with blank ~how i wan to chg job?
if resign ?wat can i do?
heart die~dying~~
at tis time,i take out my phone~half battery gone~~
i wechat Tammie ,tell her i got no sales~until now~~i scare~
i know she work at outlet but i still doing the same things wechat her!~
she help me jia you～she say stilll early~can geh~
ask me go upstair de flat market n sell~~
i say binding there aso nt much ppl when i go upstair toilet time~~she say can geh~night time~~
thx for her supprt~~
last night she edi give me a way to solve the problem~thx to her~if nt she think dao idea i think i will more suffer~~but the term n condition is i own how much i paid n buy n keep~thx to her~~really~~
it was hard~i know~she more understand~she know sunday is the hardest to sell it~~coz all come with family~~
i know~~according to our experience~~plus metro point is the place we always zero n no sales~~wan get elevan voucher at two days?if u able to get~u edi very lucky n good~~
i admin i hope i can get n i admin i nt good luck such as ppl think~i know my luck at roadshow was poor~~TT
god bless me~~
thx god~~really~if can get today sure is god bless me de~~i know~~

你知道为什么吗？因为一开始就被人骂？接下来不会有好事的～～
当我才看看钟2点30出～有点害怕～彷徨 ~突然听到天使的电话~这声音有点温暖，听到她的声音我们 不常聊电话 但熟悉的声音 感觉很舒服～很释怀～突然很幸福，我也不是很熟悉 帮不到你～TT
短短的两分钟，我幸福的 话不多情绪不好但心里是温暖的 ～只可惜没有帮得上忙～我是被需要的吧?我有用吗？我很怕我在乎的一切人与事 瞬间遗忘了我～毕竟做工后我常会被世界遗忘～哪怕有没有我都不重要吧？迟点有个新的consultant~到时候就不太会需要我了吧？我的价值只在？？？？？
我真的很怕～今天的情绪很不稳定 我哭了～泪水流出来了 无声无息的 赶紧搽干了继续派传单～
也许看着想着自己的转变。。。越做越凄惨吧？
以前的风光 现在的？算了～～
笑一笑，怎知到～被人shoot~lol,i sangat gemuk keh?lol...then i smile n say facial...bt tat time she edi move on~i know i know~~i must get used~tis method i train so long~almost one year roadshow i still somethings can 释怀～
我好胜心很强 自我追求完美 喜欢达到目标的快感～
最近牛了很多～突然想念牛牛～那天的心情和现在？差别？很大～
伤心的时间过得很慢，6点了～一张都没有～我完了～
自己说服自己过不到了算了注定的～
mobile roadshow ok de~心里酸酸的～决定不吃晚餐～
不是折磨自己 我不是这种人～只是不想吃～任性最后一次吧
楼上flat market close~day end~nt much ppl le~n i go upstair toilet saw nail point superviser~she said me u very sien o?look ur eyes so sleepy~i smile n tell ya lo...she dint realise ?i got make up,lucky just now tears nt much~
i can cry twice in a days~
first time tears out n second time when customer ssaid me tegur me i cry out...sit at my booth my chairs my mood my heart my emotion then cry he he ...a while n auto stop lol
is public~~just release a bit aso ok le~
now this tears out again since i type this blog~i know after done this blog i sleep n tomor will be better~i believe~~

之后，今天怎么了～我还遇到之前幼儿园的学生～zhi kee...cute girls~pretty le~~叫我老师了～还有她婆婆～
微笑后走了，我变了 但还有人认得我～太好了～18 岁的我 和22 岁的自己~感觉自己真的老了
oops 6.45 le....n i was lucky~thx~one mixed voucher out when i slice to unlock my phone~dint release dint read msg n i write le my first mixed voucher today~thx god~thx~~thx to this indian~thx to her bf~thx for paid money to gf~thx~this kind of guy really good~sometime i jelly~tat day my outlet aso got one husband walk in n tell wan buy package for wife~sweet~really............wan give surprise to wife~so good~~
tat day  start my emo~oh gosh,three day edi~~stop it stop it really~
之后，后面卖鞋子的indo ask me can i bank in for u？i betul betul nak tapi x ada duit? i x dare ~serious~if i give u voucher n u dn paid me~i wechat tammie~
dunno y i feel so sry ~distrub her~
at last she tell me dn~dn believe tis kind of ppl~impossible no rm 10 as deposit~she show me rm4 only i tell~
she say ok de ask the indo go paid at outlet Rm29.90 n i keep the voucher for her~she wan go kajang outlet so i pass voucher to tammie?
ask n ask at last customer say ok then say x ok~
feel x blh percaya~~but i dint give her any thigns n ok la~
just a try lo~if go then i no nneed put so many voucher here~
now i own five n i buy sin need Rm150 le~n if she wan then can out one sin~
but nt til 9.30 i wont back de~who know izit got ppl again~
try n try my best~~
dn hope to use the way ~hope can out to customer!~really~~
suffer~~tension~~stress~~
really~~i hate tis feel~
if i nvr try this job i really tot it was easy but always until end of the month i need hit or fight target really san fu
outlet la roadhsow la~~
haiz...最后，遇见以前在esteen的顾客～
我手的顾客～那个空军～
mr lim n ms lim~1499 n 1500
i think~~不记得卡号但是我的顾客～尤其是她的老公，要我洗的 曾经赞过我的～还洗到睡了～那个顾客我不会忘记的～可是他对我笑了很久还喊我irene~之前在esteenn做的～aiyoo,见不到你我不好啊～我笑了～打从心里笑了～我知道之前在可悲苛刻外我有一群很好的顾客～难得相遇～ms lim 过来和我聊天还问我做么不做了～我说人要进步看看社会，薪水还可以见识比较多～所以告诉她做了11个月～我也笑了～哈哈～
然后聊到esteen 她说没有固定的员工～helen和我都跑了～经验好的都不做了~笑笑～点头后我把helen de name card 给了她～
一切看她了，顾客要的话会找他的～
mr lim say wed operation wor,i ask him take care~~
见了他们巧遇后kajang真的很小～
世界很奇妙～一天里面我看完看回我的过去，很巧~
1st job student 2nd job customer~now?
什么跟什么自己都不清楚～
回忆过去～
以前的我单纯很多轻松很多
现在三天两天发烧的 生病的～
身体差了～感觉拉～
要作身体检查了，是时候了～
回家了，十点？我疯了～拼过头了～
没有人怎么努力都没有用的~尽力了～
我不自己？
onefm lol~~
really i nt myself leh~~
nt bad listen when u was sad~lol

is time to let my tears stop~i sit infront pc one hours ？？
当然也累了，痛了~够了～算了～～过去了～晚安～～


人要进步也要知足，一切看开随缘吧～
希望天空明天恢复正常有着我爱的日出与日落～
睡醒又会是全新的自己～