PKNS roadshow day 2

今天我睡迟了，迟到了半个小时～
我又是morning shift~
i prefer morning ~coz  i edi too tired~~
去到那里，我的booth de banner~facial n bust banner`>?what wrong o?脱皮脱谷了，然后又拦了掉了好像大战之后～
我还要黏回去，无奈～
之后，花了很长时间，挤出微笑～done!!!
全身是汗了啦～
很累下，然后开始营业～
没有人理我！
自己的自尊心作祟~
压力冒出来了～
然后，很烫～
emo~~
cant smile ~wanna to cry~
take my phone as mirror?walao~~
heart die~
instagram~
i wan to remind myself dn try to get tis emotion in future~
u can get sales ur ability~u cant get,u r nt good enough~
nt fate~no luck~nt suit u~
ya,i know i should get used of it~
i edi close myself~i edi telling myself u care u will hurt~
u know u will keras keras wan n u know u r nt able to get ~y u need to force urself too hard~heart die aso u x akan puas hati~this is true~
from the beginning u edi know the result n i know after today everythings will fixed it~
then tomoro just fight for roadshow n next month start~even u nt feel like to fight but u have to stand by for next month~
i kknow i wanna cry wanna to be lazy wanna to relax n enjoy it~of coz somethings i can~
but sometimes.....女人是善变的，矛盾的～even myself aso will confuse dunno what i wan~i feel i lost since i have fight many month~~

Tammie aso tell me,open heart~dn force too much~recently cons really less~~i know~
sometimes i hope our roadshow only at kajang n bangi area~let us fight cons~
coz we really need it~example SACC shah alam,how many cons will visit our outlet?mostly go klang coz near by ma~
but we know that kajang bangi roadshow the result will be zero~
like tat day metro point~near?n i happy?n no sales?
if no sales waste our time~y dn we just call customer at outlet no need rent place n roadshow~
boss aso rugi n we aso nt good~performance~zero ?no sales n u dare to report sales?im so sorry~nt~~
last time i eat zero i aso stress i remember~but y last time i still can relax n now?
the heart n emotions n stress all serious~y so serious about it?tammie tell let it be natural~dn blame urself~n i know but i cant accept~sendiri x blh tahan n cant breathes~especially when roadshow at bangi area~coz my asst manager tell me before~got roadshow at bangi is our chance~ur source all from roadshow~if nt?no need think about it~TT
serious~~i know~tat y early morning edi stress myself~just do my best~but....no one ~really~no one will listen me~no one wan to buy voucher from me~i kow im so ugly right now~
i explain to customer even she stop n ask but nt really will buy~just  consider about it~walao~we free rose spray aso dn wan~customer here~no comment~~

Evening,janice call n ask cons?no sales yet where got name n tel no to sent back outlet~is really hard to do~
then ....marketing call~i know joey very good n concern us very much compare to last roadshow~we long time x ada share jor~i know~TT
last share is last year oct if nt mistake?
x blh ingat~~
tak apa la~~just do mybest~
but every time after i answer phone my heart feel sorry~n force meself with double n triple stress~~
so i force too much~i dn wan all ppl disappointed~i aso hope i can do it~in my heart i know cant~but i hope can~矛盾～无奈～

when sleepy jor,i tell tammie~then we go buy nescafe~XD
again~~then cont~i play candy~but still remain 33~TT
tat account cant play~can lepas from few month~i suck there quite long~
but no heart play~x play serious~gua?too stupid jor recently mind x run~lol

then rain le~today rain i ok la~mood nt to say better but i scare i heart attrct~lady will die fast if compare to males?coz we dunno how to control~
recenlty ii feel i chg a lot~dunno how to communicate with ppl~really~
keep inside heart dunno how to express~~xxD
hehe~苦笑酸辣也没什么大不了～经历了就是成长,sales stress is compare to another more stress?nonono,i know every field aso got they stress~just ppl x say u dn think x ada~
the way i express stress>?cry~i good to handle stress~i know~i can~~催眠自己u can u can u can~
but...
有时候，就是想大哭一场， 因为心里憋屈。
有时候，就是想疯癫一下， 因为情绪低落。

有时候，就是想破口大骂， 因为心里不爽。
有时候，就是想安安静静， 因为真的我累了。
is trues~XD

7.00pm le,i still no sales~TT
8pm time up~go home~blur!~~tired~~really tired~~
go home,go out roadabout~dunno wat i thinking~lucky nth ~just the car hons me~thx god~~
i cant drive at night~i know~old edi~weak in driving?x concern too much?i duunoo~~

home~~online~~a while~saw ikki status~
long time x heard her voice~relationship?
does friends ship can last longer?should ii ask busy life  may affect?
stop n stop!!just stop here~~i know here is a place to release stress but i really tired n tired~just wan to hide inside~