PKNS roadshow LAST DAY

最后一天了，这个月的roadshow结束了～
可是一早我来到pkns,处理好摆设好后开工～
我有一种莫名的伤感～那种感觉很痛很痛～真的很不好过～
压力过大，很重很重～很辛苦！
我很像透不到气，心很痛感觉很辛苦～
我怎么了，只是很悲观的很复杂和把东西恶化了有了不该有的想法?压抑已久的情绪出来了～
平常心～我坐下来后心疼要哭了无助，我找不到词语形容～心里的痛楚自有自己懂得～
i need 平常心
what is 平常心?
normal heart~?
i need~i wan~~
i seksa inside~
alone~feel wan pengsan~
take out phone~data x off~~use data on wechat~
still early~then on fb~~then i think xia think xia i sendiri seksa~
wan go far far away~log out my fb account~all candy request~~TT
all emo post on fb~lol
i saw nice post but use at my situatuion become emo nt to say emo nt to say moody but dunno wat wrong~TT
go away la,pls let go away~i dn need this feel~hide inside~TT

i stand up then continue do sales~i knew it~no sales ~in my heart i un the theory~i knew~
my performance is ok la...just about the cons n sales~i....
actually in my heart i know is better tat previous job~
but those stress~
if 平常心
平常心can do it~
平常心...i need to learn this~really~~
TT

after tat i on my data but off the apps~i two days x serious play candy~134 lvl~
n i log out this account n play my amulet acc~walao...suck so long still 33 or 34 if nt mistake~
pity~getting serious~bodoh nya~
i like this words~bo doh nya~
my tune~~my bro say stop ejek~~like ejek ppl~i saying myself~i always like tat say pun he say like ejek ppl~lol

then i lost memorize~~always~TT
cant remember wat i wan~cant remember the following things tat i do~
i wan to think deeply sometimes really forgot~TT

then no one listen~is hurt me~
ppl ignore me~say sudah slim la,dah cantik la,x apalah,u target muda muda jek la,i tua x payah la,tak nak slim la padahal i bagi tau facial promotion~ada yang lagi teruk terus x pandang me n go la,then ada yang i ask kak ada minat nak cuba facial promosi she fierce look at me~~TT
is so bad~sad~~
tat y my mood getting worst n wanna to cry~~
TT

That day i got a frens update phone dunno how he update,i saw empty chat room at my line~i tot i sangat menyampah sampai ppl blog me~coz i x type all is emotion ~
or maybe ppl got gf jor gf x suka then block me~nvr let ppl block dunno izit will dissapear at list~check back really x ada his contact~a bit sad xia la,tot myself lost a frens~
last time ppl chase u time just think be frens ok~then after tat tot can be normal frens~i appreciate all my frens especially all my leng leng~i love them so much scare to lost it~the things tat u care alot u nt willing to give up~i lost to this words~不希望一切结束，珍惜真的很需要这一切～越爱就越怕失去～
没有原因的怕～
what can do is one words珍惜~i really 珍惜~珍惜珍惜珍惜to the infinity ~to the infinity words very nice to use from january i like tis words~after my i5 born~lol
after my frens call me tell upgrade jor uninstall line n lost my 01111 number~only got my 016 number~actually nt much ppl got my 0111 coz i x ada msg n tell all~only recently know de ppl n my leng leng n colleaugue~they always say cant call me~n im so sorry i x answer phone when drive myvi la,shower la,n always leave my phone downstair la,016 no line~so let ppl haate jor~~lol
my partner only will whatapps me so ok la~she say she like to use whatapps~but really nt bad use~convinient n u know ppl gt online or nt~last seen at.................
  

after tat tammie come~i ask the same question~what is 平常心?n how u did it~she say she edi know de very hard to do roadshow recently ~really~but have to~~just normal ~got then got lo~if nt easy heart attract~~haha~
i smile~then she take my chao kuew tiao n put infront me~today she da bao chao kuew tiao for me~XD
eat~nice~~
then chat with her~just do our best lo~~平常心
gambateh oo~~

then until 7pm i on my phone~
is time to prepare go home~ah yee said 8come close~
wait mai him~
pity him~drive his own car come~viva~inside got one light board wan sent to alamanda now~TT
then we here got one table two chairs~got three banner but all spoitl de~then one board~
all put inside his car!~he smile n say flexible~~
then he carry out roadshow bag the most heavy i think then three banner ~i help to take two chairs n a board n the stand~~my partner take table~go out n help ah yee put inside car~ then pity ah yee now go alamanda n then tomoro boss come back n ah yee go take key n need go again~TT
tuesday start i go alamanda roadshow le~April come~dunno how my life~wan hide in corner~wan ignore all the things n dissapear xia xia!~lol
逃离一切就好～
miss pd sands~sunrise n sunset~i like it~wan go kampung area n stay ~no wifi no data no ppl scold me no stress only view n eat~lol
but ...
who can approve the leave~i wan go out with my gang~dn wan alone but wan dissapear lol~~dn wan lost but edi lost~dn wan ppl ignore me but scare~lol