PKNS roadshow day 2

今天我睡迟了，迟到了半个小时～
我又是morning shift~
i prefer morning ~coz  i edi too tired~~
去到那里，我的booth de banner~facial n bust banner`>?what wrong o?脱皮脱谷了，然后又拦了掉了好像大战之后～
我还要黏回去，无奈～
之后，花了很长时间，挤出微笑～done!!!
全身是汗了啦～
很累下，然后开始营业～
没有人理我！
自己的自尊心作祟~
压力冒出来了～
然后，很烫～
emo~~
cant smile ~wanna to cry~
take my phone as mirror?walao~~
heart die~
instagram~
i wan to remind myself dn try to get tis emotion in future~
u can get sales ur ability~u cant get,u r nt good enough~
nt fate~no luck~nt suit u~
ya,i know i should get used of it~
i edi close myself~i edi telling myself u care u will hurt~
u know u will keras keras wan n u know u r nt able to get ~y u need to force urself too hard~heart die aso u x akan puas hati~this is true~
from the beginning u edi know the result n i know after today everythings will fixed it~
then tomoro just fight for roadshow n next month start~even u nt feel like to fight but u have to stand by for next month~
i kknow i wanna cry wanna to be lazy wanna to relax n enjoy it~of coz somethings i can~
but sometimes.....女人是善变的，矛盾的～even myself aso will confuse dunno what i wan~i feel i lost since i have fight many month~~

Tammie aso tell me,open heart~dn force too much~recently cons really less~~i know~
sometimes i hope our roadshow only at kajang n bangi area~let us fight cons~
coz we really need it~example SACC shah alam,how many cons will visit our outlet?mostly go klang coz near by ma~
but we know that kajang bangi roadshow the result will be zero~
like tat day metro point~near?n i happy?n no sales?
if no sales waste our time~y dn we just call customer at outlet no need rent place n roadshow~
boss aso rugi n we aso nt good~performance~zero ?no sales n u dare to report sales?im so sorry~nt~~
last time i eat zero i aso stress i remember~but y last time i still can relax n now?
the heart n emotions n stress all serious~y so serious about it?tammie tell let it be natural~dn blame urself~n i know but i cant accept~sendiri x blh tahan n cant breathes~especially when roadshow at bangi area~coz my asst manager tell me before~got roadshow at bangi is our chance~ur source all from roadshow~if nt?no need think about it~TT
serious~~i know~tat y early morning edi stress myself~just do my best~but....no one ~really~no one will listen me~no one wan to buy voucher from me~i kow im so ugly right now~
i explain to customer even she stop n ask but nt really will buy~just  consider about it~walao~we free rose spray aso dn wan~customer here~no comment~~

Evening,janice call n ask cons?no sales yet where got name n tel no to sent back outlet~is really hard to do~
then ....marketing call~i know joey very good n concern us very much compare to last roadshow~we long time x ada share jor~i know~TT
last share is last year oct if nt mistake?
x blh ingat~~
tak apa la~~just do mybest~
but every time after i answer phone my heart feel sorry~n force meself with double n triple stress~~
so i force too much~i dn wan all ppl disappointed~i aso hope i can do it~in my heart i know cant~but i hope can~矛盾～无奈～

when sleepy jor,i tell tammie~then we go buy nescafe~XD
again~~then cont~i play candy~but still remain 33~TT
tat account cant play~can lepas from few month~i suck there quite long~
but no heart play~x play serious~gua?too stupid jor recently mind x run~lol

then rain le~today rain i ok la~mood nt to say better but i scare i heart attrct~lady will die fast if compare to males?coz we dunno how to control~
recenlty ii feel i chg a lot~dunno how to communicate with ppl~really~
keep inside heart dunno how to express~~xxD
hehe~苦笑酸辣也没什么大不了～经历了就是成长,sales stress is compare to another more stress?nonono,i know every field aso got they stress~just ppl x say u dn think x ada~
the way i express stress>?cry~i good to handle stress~i know~i can~~催眠自己u can u can u can~
but...
有时候，就是想大哭一场， 因为心里憋屈。
有时候，就是想疯癫一下， 因为情绪低落。

有时候，就是想破口大骂， 因为心里不爽。
有时候，就是想安安静静， 因为真的我累了。
is trues~XD

7.00pm le,i still no sales~TT
8pm time up~go home~blur!~~tired~~really tired~~
go home,go out roadabout~dunno wat i thinking~lucky nth ~just the car hons me~thx god~~
i cant drive at night~i know~old edi~weak in driving?x concern too much?i duunoo~~

home~~online~~a while~saw ikki status~
long time x heard her voice~relationship?
does friends ship can last longer?should ii ask busy life  may affect?
stop n stop!!just stop here~~i know here is a place to release stress but i really tired n tired~just wan to hide inside~  

PKNS roadshow DAY 1

Morning shift 

一早睡醒了，不要不想起床结果拉被单继续睡～昨晚蛮夜睡的，candy 过了两天过不到133～TT
结果两点吧？不记得了，只知道回家都12点了～
跟yumi出去可以比较迟回？是没办法啦，因为我放工后回家才出～洗澡换装了，yumi才来载我去喝茶～原来我们不知觉中把约会的时间拿来拍照？自恋～不过notes 2拍照真的不错～
然后，话题在于interview?未来的我们？无法想象！～
快乐不只时间过，10点了～chg round~kajang area~coz mahkota here tis shop close at ten oclock~wat name i aso cant remember~lol～
just walk in n order~our style~XD

今天去到roadshow,10.28am,i tot too early~在车里待了一下下～
然后回复下wechat then know sophia phone spoit chg phone on last week,we nvr care n ask about it?maybe chat here n just for fun n nt much talk serious case?i prefer listen wat they talk n less reply~coz my timing nt ngam~they free time mostly i work~busy~
especially this month~early of MARCH edi fight cons n full of stress~i really cant fight on roadshow~cant get cons even half share at outlet~TT

what wrong with me?i edi knew it on the begining of this month~
尽管我努力的把一切压力揭开，说服自己我可以～告诉自己做不到就算了，不要执着 努力面对一切于是


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Fine!stop about it~stop thinking all~i non stop try to give up with normal heart~
i prefer one word~stable~neutral~normal~
What i wan just a normal simple life~why i got so many challenge n stress~~
首先在outlet asst manager start~把我们total sales court out as target n let me know how much if really can get half share if i hit 4o cons~
she wan to motivate all of us0 to get full share~me >impossible?bangi nvr full share before~then half share aso difficuilt~40个不简单～加上roadshow一直卖不到～哪里找sources？

我只能说我尽力而为吧～很难～
我真的累了～很累～
在outlet一直打电话fail cons la,incoming call book la,rec la,roadshow list including expired customer~TT
我不是没有努力过，只是不是每次努力都得到回报～
然而到昨天为止，我还差12个～3天时间～接近了～可是差那么点点多个720 ++，为什么要这样？不值得～很不值得！我努力工作把店里的工作整整齐齐的做好～包山包海也无所谓但是我没办法～我当然想要拉～

昨天marketing joey call来，说了同样的东西～我自己心知肚明知道有多少钱，大概算了～joey也说做不到很可惜～这样我心里更不好受～我不希望大家一直说fight 到的，可以的～irene ong 慢慢加油～我受够了！一句话冲你们口中说出来是多么的简单，但我要听进去吸收你们的含义有多么的难～自己承受的压力只有自己最清楚～
asst manager讲加油～我会帮你吃的～fail con?~TT
ok,thx~i know if no enroll she aso need to deduct salary~if nt success~i know~im sorry~~

AGM那三天啦来也只是打给顾客，也没有办法找cons给我～结果打的是exciting customer~要冲店的sales~TT
haiz,with her i edi nth to say~really~make me sick jor few days~when facing her soat thoat n serious headache~她杀气重～lol~~

然后，昨天真的joey想到新的方法帮我找cons~
PKNS roadshow,buy one facial voucher foc one rose aromatic spray or hamamelis spray worth Rm98~
by the way the aromatic spray is expensive that the facial voucher~n if customer purchase the voucher is facial treatment plus product only RM49.90~

over over over~~~really!~~~
亏大本的～老板竟然approve marketing de ideas~TT
really thx to joey~but it seem like nt work~really~~

from 1030am work until 5.30pm i even no chance to let a customer stop n listen what i wan to promote~even leaflet aso less ppl take~is was hard~getting harder wan to do roadshow ~~

说真的，情绪超差的～一早，我看不到什么人～然后janice call 来～我说还没有～～过后，我知道我很难做到sales但是我会尽力～我知道我差水！可以了没有～不爽～～
然后11点joey打电话来，谢谢关心～我看到了tester,voucher n free redem de ~~thx a lot~marketing hope us can fight dao n get share she really help us a lot~n help to think a way to give us sources~
下午有人走过却没有人感兴趣～哪怕说了送产品～夸张！
心碎～wanna to cry~~
lunch time,Tammie noon shift she take away my favourite butter chicken add egg～还好她有打包来，不然没有东西吃～我一早开data就是为了回复whatapps~她问我要吃什么～我们都用whatapps方便许多～

然后开餐，继续努力～人潮过了～静了～我们的banner坏的，从早到现在我黏回去几次了～tammie call ah yee come n exchange~then he repair~TT
haiz...our booth~nth to say~
~after janice call me then rain,janice call n tell me no cons edi~must have five to six cons today~make sure gt out five voucher like tat n go~TT
hard~i hope soo...stress bao~no words to show my stress~fXXX~
really tired n emo~tammie start sleepy then ask me wan order coffee?i need it too~tired n heart die~TT
after tat,i tell tammie coffe gao~lol
we order less sugar n gao~really sot jor~i cant drink too over de,after take will soat throat but just drink~no rasa at all~maybe just wan to seksa myself!~i dunno wat i wan right now!~fight or nt aso nt in my hand~i just do my best~force myself to sell voucher  with smile~i can do it~but......

  突然响大雷，大风吹～然后纸张乱飞～很凉下拉，我今天穿half 的背心～结果满冷的，不错如果穿tshirt更冷拉
～tammie edi go behind the banner~she wear tshirt today~
after tat i start feel hot,i go outside~look at the rain~TT
god aso feel impossible to fight?i dunno~

heavy rain~most of the ppl cant go out~but still no one listen to me~play back another account~lvl 33~
play n play x lepas~heart no here aso~tat y both account cant play~but no heart to play aso ~just sent life to frens~ngam ngam saw qqherry request heart~he aso playing tis games now?
candy is for relax n play no need stress de games~i happy then can lepas lvl~but now no heart to play!~
on 3G whole day~thn i should off~emo~~wan to go outside shower~lol

is ok la,then i sit there almost fall in sleep~today most of the time i stand~really~
but gt a feel nt feeling well,headache~~
suddenly i saw joey,she come in front of me n hi~lol
hi...joey~
she from HQ n support~ask wat things need to improve~she really hope n=me n tammie can fight 40cons~i get what she wan to do~she aso research this play n walk around n ask ppl~~
she did her best~thx to her~i got no sales can blame any one~but anyone can blame y i got no sales~yes...i weak n tired~in my heart i planning wan do it until get sales only home~at last hand shake~blur jor~so i tell tammie i go back first~before 8 i go back ~walao..pucat dao~~cant accpet~blur~then drive n go home~walao...wrong way~i turn out then wrong place~i going the direction is to my outlet~i should go uturn or opposite way~then home bath eat n lie on sofa~candy~pass one round~then no mood to play~emo~serious emo~those stress make me cant breathe~dn wan always complain~i know~be happy~i know~but u know the theory n u wont know the way~TT
is ok la,got keyboard press hard n hard ~~type blog~~!!!
sleep early ba,thinkiing is nt the way~
seeing if not believing~ 
my problem getting serious~nitez

warta roadshow

1st day of warta roadshow~~
early morning,10 need reach warta bangi.
Ah yee要我把钱交给warta office~
然后他去开booth~
我刚刚进到停车场，ah yee就打电话来了～
我告诉他我找着位子停车我们就约在那里外面mamak那里等因为我不知道warta这里的这里的office在那里～
然后我cincai de park好车,过去找他～
最后我那里信封ah yee教我怎么上去~
4th floor terus u akan jumpa office~
at last,ah yee骗我～他搞错了～是3楼啦！
结果吓死我了拉～那恐怖的lift是我的死穴～上次经典开关几乎把我吓的半生不死～
then now again i take lift alone~early morning who wanna to take lift n go upstairs~
then when 4th floor open,i walk out with nth~no light somemore~
ah yee said that go out the lift infront got office edi~i walk n walk~whole floor no ppl~n it was quite dark n quiet~荒废feel~walao...scary~~
almost cry out ~alone~~
is ook!telling myself nth to scare at the moment i really sweat n scary~~
i wan to press lift but the button there was spoit~
can i know how many years tis floor no ppl come!~scary~i cant press down just press up~go upstair then lift go down~got ppl walk in to the lift at 3rd floor~
I ask can i know office is which floor~i nt dare floor by floor go out~he tell me this floor~floor 3~tingkat tiga office sahaja~ok~thx~go downstair n alone the lift go up~
some feeling that cant express out!dunno what to say~
宁静的无法呼吸～
怎知，office de worker like ah yee said 没有礼貌～
fine~dn wan to said it anymore ~just give payment n take invoice~just sign n sign then go downstair~my booth is infront poh kong n giant~G floor~~

ah yee edi set up everythings n ask me how~i done n pass it to him~~start my roadshow~~

Emo start n i start to cooling n protect myself~~then on 3G~~
start work~~walao~~here de ppl i hate so much~all dunno limao de~x hormat langsung~shit~such as monkey~even monkey aso know to say thx or is ok~they just pass by u n ignore~u telling or giving things they act dunno~menyampah betul la~aku just nak bagi leaflet n suruh u ambil pun susah apatah lagi nak beli~
geram betul~

tahan until 8oclock~no sales~TT
bawa telur je~~dunno y mood nt good~sakit hati~i not to said wan ppl respect or what but pls let me speak out or u just stop  me if really dun wan~i hate tis feeling la~
i know here de ppl is like tat but i cant control my feel~i was headache n quite serious right now~
i scare n go to car park~actually i scare to take lift n scare this place car park~dunno y ~nt safety feel at all~just go back n almost accident~~when pass by roundabout!~TT
thinking tat im so tired n blur just now~lucky was nth~thx god~~

很辛苦真的很辛苦～无言形容不出～很累～coffee like useless for me~today gt take a cup of coffee at mamak but still tired~
sleep early~learn to be strong!i can do it~




2nd day~
11am start~
on 3G~early morning go shell to refill petrol~queue~~long queue~ppl like early morning isi petrol~
then go there just park the nearest~n take lift again~alone~~
just be normal ~i know i have to go by it~i just normal n  wait~dn think tat today got sales~
just be normal~~i know~all are saying the same things~i heard~just ignore it~~

y irene from last month no sales ya?
how come no sales?
y metro point til now no sales~?
irene this month nt suit for roadshow right?
u realise or nt that u from last month no sales?
from shah alam pkns til now no sales?
from u start work 18-2-2013 until now eat how many eggs?
u know?
u know how stress if really think like tat?
u kmow i just act nth n smile is how hard tat i need to face it~?
i still under negative ~~walao~~

when i go work i saw tammie last night got five sales~she really top sales~
i now even no mood to fight aso have to serve customer~
i serve almost all customer they just ignore n ignore~sien ~
but gt customer sit down n look like interested~~
at last not to buy voucher~~
if u no feel wan to buy y u give me a hope  n sit down to listen?it was so hurt~~
n dunno y again n again~i serve ppl ,ppl listen n likee ask so many question at last no buying aso~
izit my problem~?no luck?
how hard u do aso u cant get what u wan~~
if i serve those are buyinG~i guess now edi got five or six sales~at last 0~
tammie come i tell her how i serve customer n useless~she ask weather i pray at cny or not~lol~
evening my AGM call tammie n ask~tammie say nt yet ~AGM like saying somethings n tammiesay irene tell wan go pray~ya,in my mind is true~i nvr get lost n nvr roadshow non stop no sales~at least pun satu dua~this time really tak ada~they chat phone so long n i just ignore n do sales!
poh kong tat guy,last year roadshow here first time gt keng gai de just ask me how sales so tell him lo~he say here nt bad de wor~then just smile n do  my job~4plus edi low battery~i play  candy play too much jor~headache~x blh tahan i kalah so much~x blh accept~lol
play too over jor n non stop request heart(life) thx qqherry non stop help me~i think he aso sien n boh song me jor gua~request many times coz no one bottle me today~sblur yu pun x sent to me~lol
really thx to him~~
then 8plus i call mummy tell her i wan to eat roti canai~paksa her accompany me go eat even she got cook porridge at home~i wan to do wat i thinking n give up all the things~lol
任性的自己，惹人厌～我觉得啦～
再大的努力只要没有运气运气不属于你的再怎么奋斗也徒劳无功～绝望是时候了～领悟了什么道理似的，放弃自己的想法～原则呢？伤心过度～去睡觉了～




3rd day~last day~~
this morning i awake with tired body~tired face n headache so much~
just move to shower n breakfast~
last night i say go to bed~at last off phone off wifi pillow talk with mummy~until midnight 1plus i think~i telling i very stress this all tat~she just say relax n in the world a lot of ppl poor tat u ,pity tat u ,no work,no money,sick,cacat etc....but they still trying to alive with they best y dn u relax n enjoy n great with what u get~
i know,i telling mummy i hope to help ppl~i wan to do donation if i got a lot of money~but now i wan a lot n i wish to get better n better but seen like i cant get anythings!~i was so tired~reallly~~talk til where i aso cant remember then i fall in sleep~~

long time no pillow talk~nt even this~i feel long time x keng sam shi with my gang or maybe i less to talk with ikki~less chance less phone call~even yumi come back she know my things n she dunno my stress~somethings feel like keep inside heart~but i have nt much secret~i emo will tell ~~at least got wechat there n cubic so tat i nt yet crazY~if i work here one week maybe i really gila jor~~now i headache  n tomoro need back outlet~~
today no sales~~n tammie so kind put one slim to me~she say better tat today no sales~we fight so san fu edi~lucky got her then i roadshow only got ppl keng gai n nt stress much~we play phone together n i charge twice my phone~~3G really~~yesterday i dn feel wan to charge so ignore it~today i charge~`moood ..............

9pm we zap booth n i keep all banner~close it n put inside bag~actualy wat a guy can do i aso can do~wat a man can carry aso i can do it~just maybe slow a bit ~i nt to say i very strong but i can stay strong~just hope i learn to nvr get hurt ~~actually 知足常乐，这么简单的道理你不懂吗？
今天见到一位残杖人士，坐轮椅的来买东西warta giant~then又遇到手断了的人，真的只剩一个手（右手）来按电话男人来的经过我面前～我知道顿时领悟，昨晚妈妈说的话，我早知道只是会自我生气自我多愁善感自备无奈～或许只是情绪化～

just ignore me~~pls dn read it~i dunno wat i saying ~dunno wat i typing~just~typing wat i think or maybe i nvr think i just type~lol
ignore n ignore~so shy about it~so disappointing n nth edi~just mood gua~i hope this post emotions all gone~after awake maybe i cant reember this post~good night~~ 

maybe is roadshow here i gain somethings n learn to strong~n i success~maybe i scare this place too over n get tis emotions~it will be alright n i dn think it happened~
 

March diary~

8－3－2013
38妇女节快乐
1st day roadshow metro point kajang~

我一点也不快乐～兜里五圈我还没有找到位置停车，纳闷怎么天空那么灰～lol
结果进去没有人，没有很愉快～头重重～
然后，tammie到了～我们去oldtown吃午餐～
聊天，他又带了个手信给我～magnet de~our trandisional~xD
maybe work jor the best things is magnet gua~XD
sweet^^然后有故事听～好好的酒店哦～风景超美的～
之后之后回去我们的booth~sales ar~~then realise gt money changing~lol
在看多一下，原来板面店倒闭了～lol

然后，没有sales~candy ...lol
3G开着，结果需要充电～
到晚上，没有做到～感觉白做～回家～突然忘记自己的车在哪里～压力过大？失忆症～告诉tammie她说我不可以住condominium or apartment会找不到车～我笑了～哈哈～

大家一起走，我记起来了，在mydin there~没有走错方向~haha...XD


9-3-2013
Headache~serious cant wake~lol
roadshow metro point~2nd day~

没有什么特别，没有sales的一天～打字也没有力气～
然后，开了一天3G~powerbank 还要没有电～然后，突然yumi wechat yum cha~on lo~she wan today only~from tat day i say friday i roadshow dn wan~then ppone sat~mean today i ask can chg day she wan today only~okok~~

然后放工回家，准备好了，直接出去～yumi到了～她来载我说有重要消息要说～原来他要去jb le~1个月～打算在那里做工～气死我了，才回来一个月～我不管啦，我还没有跟你玩够广购～结果你又要走了，还要聊那么铭感的话题～
我们的将来你已经有打算了，羡慕你啊～我不知自己要怎么样～我的路~你的路被你规划好了～明明三个人，加ah may coz sophia有dinner~然后，我跟may竟然如此陌生～可悲～
她是打算26号进来我公司～我有点纳闷，不过他们终于下定决心了～好事来的～
madam de metropoint will be closed on may n moved to saujana impian~is good news or bads news?倒闭～
说来话长，我觉得租金使问题搬也是问题也许是巧合～
可悲的消息是uncle loy过世了～风水大师～曾经叫我面壁有桃花那个，还有教我吹愿望的风水师～他明明很健康啊，ah may 说新年前的事，那madam今年没有看风水了？

有点伤心，可是我回家emo是另外一件事～emo nt good~~wat i emo just now~i just keep it n throw ~TT

good night~walao 2am,good night~


10-3-2013
Last day metro point roadshow

No sales for three day n own sales -4pcs of sales~how i wan to replace~TT
i know~im so sorry~TT

emo n headache n walao~~pain die me,the feeling tat u pain is nt usual pain~is was killing me at the moment~almost faint today~i tell tammie i nt feeling well today n get a cup of enrich chocolate then sit on the chair n rest~after tat i fall in sleep~then upstair got lelong n noisy but cant do any sales~no one wan buy our voucher n ignore us onlY~the feeling was so bad~it pain n feel like we no values at all~wat the~~i really dunno how to express n my heart was so pain~my body was painful~even painkiller aso cant cure me~lol

but really,today just take a bread n lekor lekor n hot n roll~zapalang food only ~without any rice n noodle~
9plus we go home with no sales~n i reallly so fucking tired~painful day~~



11-3-2013
OUTLET DAY~
1st day after roadshow back to outlet n the mood is like normal~better tat eat egg at roadshow~just non stop calling customer n calling cons~walao~my bangi sales is so horrible~i two day -friday n sat roadshow metropoint n sunday bangi outlet was close~but the sales edi 60..JW really is good in sales~if i cant get 40cons get half share this month i really will cry 99~~i cant accept it~my cons right now 13~TT
coming no cons already~roadshow no ppl buy no cons to bangi~i no more source already~sad~really sad~~TT

fine,continue my job~~
rest a while,headache few day~lie on my table~so comforrtable n feel wanna to nap~so tired~
suddenly vern come n do her treatment point wan wrote into point book~
i wake n continue copy the name to outgoing call book~then start chating~

其实还好啦，我接受到的～只是大家都接收不到我吃蛋～JW还问我，其实你开工到现在有没有发现自己不适合做roadshow~我突然傻眼～无可否认我开工到现在颓废在roadshow浪费时间金钱～～我知道，运气和努力缺一不可～笑笑后开始继续抄写～

之后jw出去下下，买东西～然后叫东西吃～我们吃隔壁～然后swee ling 走出来，插嘴问我受了什么刺激？生不如死，我答了她，她说cheh,还以为你被男人骗～吓死我～我眼眶湿湿下，我知道他很疼我的～很关心我，或许他觉得我太笨吧？我自己有时也会觉得～做这份工后，缺点一大堆～自己发现拉～哈哈～

开餐后，继续打电话～然后休下坐下～打完了第一个抽屉～swee ling要让我休息了，她说做么你的line pop 没有分数？我笑了，还没有玩啊～然后他说快去拿来玩，我就开始玩了～哈哈哈～他们果然，我一开他们分数已经1miles了～厉害～结果勉勉强强7百出收工～哈哈

放工前大家埋怨才见我一天我又休息了～哈哈~

syok nya~later sophia come my house to facial me~then yumi come to learn n recall back her beauty memory~XD


12-3-2013
Offday~Hang out with Yumi n sophia~
1st station yumi park her car at my house~
2nd i fetch her n go sophia house~then go ts~
when reach we tot gai gai de~yumi say wan take bus~got car but wan take bus ?nice~
good n special suggestion~
then we go sg wang station bus stop wait bus~got U27~
seriously i long time no take bus too~then we go up the bus the driver tot we r tourist~sophia ask how much?i follow ask how much ya,driver say i dunno bahasa?i terus chg to malay tone,berapa?funny~~
then enjoy take bus moment~yumi excited n miss our last time moment~last time i can take bus from kajang til kota raya~we two always take together~nice memory~~
then kota raya~we walk petaling street~
last time she like de longgan lo hon guo~then we eat yongtauhu~last time tat place~walk around~then walk kota raya~XD
our academy edi move~lol~
only theory class~TT
all ah gua~got one shop ah gua welcome us,we almost laugh 0ut~so friendly~lol

then naik taxi infront kota raya to kenaga whole sales~sophia say wan go there buy daughter de clothes~
i sit infront~it was a wrong decision~walao...the taxi tot us nt malaysian~i terus kita orang sini~sepuluh ringgit mahal~lol~but naik juga~yumi say ok sophia say ok~ok lo~
then the taxi 语言骚扰～i hate tis feel~putih x ada salah~stupid taxi say me putih n gap my leg~
sophia n yumi pun perasaan dao n sophia help me say i sudah marry dn kacao me~lol
lucky just say but i edi x comfortable~boh song face~lucky a while jek~then walk around~dint buy anythings~no feel wan buy things!sophia buy three cloth to her luilui~then yumi buy somethings~i no feeling just walk around~leg pain n tired~~TT

after tat,take taxi go ts~walk around~i drink fruit boost~Rm13.50~i spend money ~i happy~lol~we always drink tis at alamanda roadshow~i like fruit juice~fresh~~XD
then walk around n back~

sophia husband ask sophia da bao the chicken rice from mahkota cheras~we go there~i tot can eat my favourite food court~fish rice~but too early x buka yet~only yumi n sophia take aways~
at shoplot de,sophia say nice la~

then i go home shower n rest~type blog~tired ~dunno y recently so tired~11plus can sleep le~tomoro work~outlet~hopefully i can done my thngs~



13-3-2013
outlet~
 Start call customer early morning~
a lot~
then Lunch time,we order mohd chan~i go take,then ah yee our office boy reach my shop i ngasm ngam back to shop~XD
then chat xia,2pm lunch~we eat together~
Swee ling say i take out all the bawang la,sayur etc x ada nutriation then see me pucat say i nt healthy~
 then Swee ling突然插出一句，irene是不可以被人伤害的你们觉得呢？经典的话题～～我说没有啊，然后她就剥下虾壳给我吃～有一阵感动～没有人义务对你好，有人对你好是要珍惜哪怕是一下子～她说你吃的hor,是没有人剥给你吃才不吃吧？鱼也是把？还特地炒热气氛说要放进口咬了没有骨才吐出来，我笑了～原本很累很辛苦下的～顿时有点轻松～JW则说如果有人对你骗财骗色你一定会跳楼死的～我说做么？他说因为你被保护惯了～我哪有啊？原来大家眼中的我都是不同的～大家自我设定了一个我？
突然很好奇我到底是怎么样的？你们对我的感觉是怎样？
我吃饱后继续做事～没有太多的偷懒～不敢偷懒～很多事还没有处理～
然后，wash cloth la.call la~Finaally~
i done my job~i called all yellow cards~i rearrange the 2010 fail con to fail con fail~i done my daily sales plan n all~XD
tired~~
then i tot wan call fail time i edi serious pain n headache~lie on table n nap~really fall in sleep n swee ling call me go sleep at cons room~a while i feel better~swee ling know i not feeling well~JW got give me panadol~i x take~then swee ling non stop got come out n see me~ask me feel better or not~~she really like a sister just she sometimes say words sharp n easy get hurt~i know she sayang me de~XD


night time go help JW go Mr clean take things ~heavy rain~kena rain a bit~TT
then faxed sales n done today job~
go home time,Jam~
JW wait me then ask me follow her go another way~thx to her very much~i can reach home early~Thx n nice~but i alomst accident twice~once i out i almost langgar viva~i x see properly~i tired n forgot beside~lol
second is pajaro~walao~after tol i x see properly~he hon me~walao~i go his line tanpa perasaan~thx god i can safety home~good night ~

nt dare think too much!!

Roadshow PKNS Last day 010313

Last day roadshow today n tomoro will back to outlet~

今天一早，我真的起不到身~很累，腰痛～我去洗澡后跑着出去～迟到了～9。45才出门～去到10。45虽然赛车，但是我飞110 after jam area~coz alone n lonely feel so i drive quite fast n with myvi power really 110equal to my car 80~~
只是跑太快我好像中了几张saman~限定80的阿～这三天，真的难熬～尤其今天我一个人～一路开着data,power bank~但却没有明确用着电话～我怎么了？
没有东西按拉，最近电话很少响了～大家各忙各的，明天起我又不按电话了～所以今晚按个痛快～candy~XD

然后，没有sales~park SACC mall coz alone cant park sacc convetion center~my car park RM 9.50~heart pain with no sales n emo emo so buy a blusher at this fair beside my booth de victoriajackson product~RM95 n i sweep my card~ppl say crazy ppl with do nonsense things n i hope spending money buy things i can happy~actually nt~~i more unhappy~alone here n no ppl wan to listen ~even customer interested aso wont buy voucher from me,what wrong with this place ppl~im so tired edi~~

whatapps there tammie ask me ok n tell me that promoter ask wan da ao wat n she give my number to her~she call my number but i x answer~another number ring n i answer!~is tat promoter caterina~thx for da bao for me~i still thinking weather dn eat or buy oldtown again~thx for her call~~

after that she watapps me telling jam～then i serve many ppl with the answer tat no thx,dn wan...sien n emo~alone sit down dunno what to do~~chat with sebelah ppl~sien n nth to say~is ok~~continue work n giving leaflet until caterina come~

我一坐下，他就告诉我那天她怎样撞车。。很危险，还好人没事～吓到我@@
然后继续那天的话题，她男朋友，情人节怎么过？lv～～
然后她前男友，她喜欢水比较多～故事很长，很精彩，他的人生很精彩一点也不频繁～她的一切故事，我受益良多～～

还直接听到3点我才开始吃我叫他打包的炒果条～然后吃饱，开工～去old town陪她吸烟～坐外面吸烟区～我的enrich chocolate,还好没有在喝咖啡～不错啦，休息下继续奋斗～没有什么人了～很难做～

然后又聊聊天，我太乖了？太单纯了？男友的钱用来花？我总觉得不要轻易用男人钱比较好，男朋友应该没有义务钱多钱多给你用吧？所以我满佩服她，她男友又可以在她身上花钱～给他钱用，买名牌，我不是很追名牌啦，品牌也还好，喜欢就好～我还是希望自己可以赚多点，男人可以女人也可以～只是，这间公司，我可以吗？心里在质疑自己了～感觉没有安全感～

聊到一半，有点感动，她男友真的无条件付出。。他遇到的都很好而且很有钱～人人的命不同，我的？也许没有人家轰轰烈烈，也没有感动惊天动地，不敢要，不想～听太多了，自己也乱了！～

回家咯，做迟了～没有就是没哦～买不到就算啦～
我很累～回家路上眼睛要关了～因为身边没有人～踩油门快点，飞回家～怎知塞车～yumi call ask wan yum cha today>?im so tired n dn wan to meet ppl~is ok la,maybe tomoro i let her know~~

oh ya,just saw my new jazz teacher msg ask wan join back dance this month~i hope n wish to join back but i never reply~now edi 10.45pm dn distrub him~tomoro ask my colleague~i wan join~wan them on only i can on？if possible i on alone~edi forgot those steps~lol


Candy n candy~~
is time to sleep lo~nitex~~

PKNS shah alam-2nd day

I cant wake up today~im so tired...TT
昨晚我十二点睡，很累眼睛肿肿了~
一睡下去，自己真的不懂什么是什么～睡醒知道自己整个晚上在发梦，没有里头自己也不记得什么梦了～很累，感觉没有让自己休息充足～

要上妆时。。。我几乎哭了，才一天我的脸又痒有多一粒粒，很多很粗很痒的豆豆～我的马呀～怎么能忍受，昨天没有化眼妆今天随便画了几笔～出门前妈妈说煮了maggie mee给我，吃了出去～然后去载tammie~雨天很懒，很累很不想动～早上起来时我左边肩膀真的很严重痛～我按按下还是不能～才去洗澡的～很辛苦啊～～

昨天我要求tammie陪我吃A&W le...Tammie 不喜欢快餐的，偶尔加上是少有的A&W所以她 ok la~~我们还没有过RM1.10的tol前有petronas n A n  W de drive thru de~从我第一次去shah alam时已经看到了，经过了我就想吃了~最近那里的a n w都关了，听说management问题～可惜啊，那么好吃的root beer n curly fried
after drive thru terus check in～then过了收费站~rm1.10...........

然后，一路顺顺塞塞走走听听～到了～我们开工了。。停在那里我不知道，每次来每次迷路的，我真的不会这里的路～希望不要一个人来，怕怕～明天～～
停了在shah alam convetion center de basement car park~我们搭lift上去然后走过去pkns~怕怕～昨天停pkns per enterance RM 1.50,every one hour Rm1 then we from 11.45 til 1.45 edi need Rm3.50 for car park then we move our myvi to sacc convertion center n per enterance only RM 5~
虽然比较有划，可是明天自己一个人不可以啦～一来昨天那车时已经很静～二来一个人又暗暗又不熟悉。。tammie也告诉我危险～他很会看人和事的～要信他，很为我着想的同事，很谢谢她不舒服还陪我来做工～～
重点是sales~我真的不懂要还到何时，她实在是太好了，很爱她的说，但这种爱是在心里面～我们有时候各自做各自的东西没有讲话的～今天早上就是，静静的到了，回家也是静静的在我车里没有讲话～我饿了，没有力气加上不是我的车，晚上我眼睛又干所以静静的，只是一下雨，我们同时说了同样的一句话，下雨啊～哈哈～有默契下。。如果要不舍得这间公司的人第一个一定是她～像个姐姐这样疼我教我，还努力为我争取一个人很危险。。不可以做full~
今天，那个promoter没有来，我们从早做到晚～没有办法，office joey讲的没有人做工我们做full~TT

就因为这样搞到我们两个只吃那么一餐，她又瘦了，我又涨了因为oldtown again~我知道我胃不好，心脏不能承受太刺激可是真的很眼睡，加上我只卖到一张，躺在桌子很幸苦～tammie卖到了，hits到了～51 voucher per month^^她有extra money le~到我，欠三张～她帮我拉我一把，不然那100飞走了～
谢谢阿。。感激不尽～因为真的很累很懒很辛苦很难拉，一起拉顾客讲讲讲到最后，我总觉得这里的人问而已，不买的～辛苦阿～～

结果8点多接近9点。我们回家前上个厕所，然后走了～明天我一个人。我脸很痒很累，很想逃离一切，怎么办？我想要长假，这是做工后想要的～如果我不用做工有钱花多好，发梦～
是时候睡觉了～很怕很慌张，明天会不会塞车走错路。。。我的肩膀，很奇怪我的右手背边的骨那里有点肿起来，今天我视乎梦游半睡半醒在这里，敲到了也不知道吧？

纳闷，但这两天的emo指数是89%而以，没有严重！～没有时间恶化，一直按电话充电～这样～所以还好吧～试下明天不要手机不离身，今天玩candy第一次发脾气，我的妈呀，line pop又玩不到然后交给tammie,有一mile我就可以了，最后开心一下下在第四，又跌倒了～不明白他们到底怎样玩的，我自问没有很喜欢玩游戏吧～结果卡在半天吊～什么都不到岸～闲@@我就是那么没用啦，做不到sales,爬不上岸，没有好胜心，没有办法啦，我真的不爽自己了～！！！笨到死无聊的人生很想发脾气阿～！@@#@#$%……

Roadshow PKNS-1st day

刚刚我看回了自己近期的部落，发现了自己的性格也发现到每次roadshow自己都会生病，头痛胃痛发烧，怎么自己那么弱了？
今天是我第一天在PKNS SHAH ＡＬＡＭ Ｒｏａｄｓｈｏｗ～对于我们的考验的开始，做多一场要面对的就是一场ｒ／ｓ的压力，时间精力～无可否认我已经很缺乏那种要ｆｉｇｈｔ的ｏｈｍ～想到的就是做不到就亏了ｔｏｌ 钱油钱 ｐａｒｋｉｎｇ钱～不是我们员工不帮你做，说实在的你不要认为方我们在哪里哪里就卖到？无可否认我的同事真的很厉害，每次我做不到，只要哪里有人潮他就至少会卖到，ｅｃｏｎｓａｖｅ 那开头前几天例外，可是我一不在他就开始卖到了～星期四我ｌｅａｖｅ那天，她出到一张，破蛋啦～


这次其实我真的很感激他，还好他主动要陪我来，还好有她陪我两天，那天ｍａｎａｇｅｒ ｍｅｅｔｉｎｇ ，ｍａｒｋｅｔｉｎｇ ｊｏｅｙ 的条件是我三天她三天，我答应后心里整整不安～还为此闹了很大件事，现在想起心里还是有够不舒服的～心情不好时会想到就哭，不是很委屈啦就是自己善良单纯和害怕～奇怪，我的牛脾气去了哪里？视乎吓破胆了，最近只会生自己气，很久没有发火了～以前在ｍａｄａｍ 那里还会ｓｈｏｗ ｆａｃｅ，ｍａｙｂｅ长大了，忍受能力好了？也许人生经历的我也在踏着了，面对ｒｏａｄｓｈｏｗ ｃｕｓｔｏｍｅｒ，面皮要厚，不想讲话也要推销顾客，以前就死命做不停，为的是什么？不知道就很忙很忙～现在，忙还是忙无日无夜压力大了？笑容？还好啦，伪装的很快乐，只有在ａｐｐｓ ｇｒｏｕｐ 透露自己很累，在同事面前我可以拉，尽力哦～

每次ｏｕｔｌｅｔ打电话来，很努力地说我会尽力的，我尽量。。自我崔民有ｓａｌｅｓ的，自己没有做到也笑笑告诉同事或许会有顾客来，由顾客自己送上门～其实自己知道啦。。哪里有可能？你不拉他，他都不会回头看你，哪怕免费也没有人要？ｌｏｌ
或许时机未到啦，有一次真的我同时随便说说就有顾客跟他买。我则要解释多多才勉强有ＳＡＬＥＳ～ｌｏｌ

我最好的一个月大概去年十月，那次微微生病但赚到２千～那也许是第一次也是最后一次辉煌的业绩了～之后就换了ｃｏｍｍｉｓｉｏｎ～
之后十一月３００多块亏大了～然后今年夸张，几乎常常吃蛋～我一点也不喜欢吃鸡蛋好不好，吃蛋压力大了，就连荷尔蒙都失调了啦～很想说我尽力了，所以那是忙完后都大病一场～几乎常常喉咙痛，现在已经开始了～每次ｒｏａｄｓｈｏｗ超过４天我一定喉咙痛的，上星期ｅｃｏｎｓａｖｅ没有休息，直接来这里～今天夸张咯，马六甲都到咯，我塞了两个钟才到，开ｄａｔａ，ｐｌａｙ ａｐｐｓ～很累了，驾的车还是家里最好的车～ｍｙｖｉ，ｎｏｒｍａｌｌｙ ｓｈａｈ ａｌａｍ ｉ ｐｒｅｆｅｒ ｍｙｖｉ ｆａｓｔ ｎ ｓａｆｅｔｙ～如果是我车早都不懂怎么了～
我以前就在想啊，我驾车很危险美车也是这样啦，现在我担心的是我的车老了怕７３７２坏在路边没有人救我～车？女生哪里会的～所以我都定时ｓｅｒｖｉｃｅ～我喜欢驾车载人，因为不是每个人喜欢驾车，我喜欢无条件的载人不去计较～所以这次我告诉我同事你陪我去你还要去槟城玩没关系啦两天我去载你好了，我真的谢谢她不然一个人塞我傻掉了～还要３天都早上～夸张的是赛车那么远那么长的路～１ｍａｒｃｈ我一个人，哭着去哭着回～怕怕～～突然很怕一个人～

昨天，我同事芙蓉那个ｓｗｅｅ ｌｉｎｇ的男朋友给她惊喜～突然打电话来，她刚好和我的ａｓｓｔ ｍａｎａｇｅｒ ｎ ｖｅｒｎ去９９ｓｐｅｅｄｍａｒｔ买东西，那时候没有顾客～她男朋哟打电话给她，他没拿电话出去，就像我在ｏｕｔｌｅｔ电话放ｌｏｃｋｅｒ的～所以有电话等于没电话～然后没办法就打店的电话找他～我接的，他说他有东西要给她，叫我帮她拿～原来是他打包了肉骨茶和煮了红枣茶给她，好贴心哦～～
还给她惊喜，好幸福哦！人家是未来老板娘，有男朋友疼，有花收，不错下～难免有时候会羡慕觉得有男友很好，不过那只是短暂的羡慕回到现实要经营一段感情不容易啊～所以我还不想要～有时候人家会说做到将辛苦做么拉，有时我也会纳闷那些男朋友叫女朋友不要做工他养的起她之类的，但是现实点这世界上哪有那么多这种人，而我也不适合这种人生～不做工等人养我做不出～～女人还是靠自己比较好，努力储蓄尽力让自己进步好了～～

ok,fine~~不要埋怨多多自己可以的，加油

自己可以？有点讽刺的说，我今天真的很累，塞了两个小时车－９．３０ａｍ ｏｕｔ ｆｒｏｍ ｍｙ ｐａｒｔｎｅｒ ｈｏｕｓｅ，ｔｈｅｎ ｒｅａｃｈ １１．４５ａｎ～
夸张的塞车，我脚很酸，很累手抖了～第一次驾车到那么辛苦～折磨～
因为我打从心底知道很难做而且很累，我已经从ｅｃｏｎｓａｖｅ到现在没有休息了～真的很累，结果去到那里找不到ｂｏｏｔｈ～ｔｈｅｎ ｔｕｒｎ ｎ ｔｕｒｎ～我们都第一次进来这～
然后我找ｗａｓｈｒｏｏｍ～我同事没有要上的意思，自己去～怕怕～很恐怖的冷巷，没有人有ｍｏｔｏｒ－ａｉｒｃｏｒｎ ｄｅ ｍｏｔｏｒ 声吧？然后很偏僻下。。还是不确定是厕所在那里，还好里面真的是～不然走进去后自己吓自己～明知道自己很胆小的说～～

然后，我们找ｃｏｆｆｅｅ～～ｍａｍａｋ？ｏｋｏｋ，ｎｅｓｃａｆｅ ｔａｒｉｋ ｋｕｒａｎｇ ｍａｎｉｓ～ｔｈｅｎ我们拿去ｂｏｏｔｈ喝～很甜，最近我怕甜～胃口改变了。。。巧克力？不怎么爱了，所以成长了？是要健康～没有健康的身体怎么拼命阿？ｌｏｌ

没有东西吃，ｔａｍｍｉｅ叫ｐｒｏｍｏｔｅｒ－ｃａｔｈｉｎａ 打包过来，那个ｐｒｏｍｏｔｅｒ是他朋友来的，之前２０１１常常一起做工的～幸运。。有鸡饭吃，ｓｅｒｉ ｋｅｍｂａｎｇａｎ过来顺便帮我们打包～命苦得大家，那么远过来，做不到真的亏了～

下午很累很眼睡，ｏｌｄ ｔｏｗｎ ｗｈｉｔｅ ｃｏｆｆｅｅ？ｏｋｏｋ～ｔａｍｍｉｅ帮我去买，他自己要苦的因为他也很累～我们怎么了～我继续坐在那里，没有人没有ｓａｌｅｓ手不舒服，胃不舒服，腰那天发作了。。近半年没有痛了，最后一次看腰骨痛好像去年４月～之后等他自己好～我很累了，想睡觉～可是现在在家却不想睡，一躺下去就要睡醒了，所以很珍惜现在～一个小时多了，是时候了～对着电脑，放空，心里的话，不懂可以告诉谁
？我知道我很烦，妈妈都不听了～没有时间听～今天玩了一天ｃａｎｄｙ～ｓｔｉｌｌ ３９～ｌｏｌ．．．ＴＴ
ｗａｓｔｅ ｉｔ～ｎｏ ｌｉｆｅ ｌｅ．．．ｍａｙｂｅ ｐｌａｙｉｎｇ ｃａｎｄｙ ｔｉｍｅ ｕｓｅ ｍｙ ｂｒａｉｎ ｎ ｉ ｘ ｔｉｒｅｄ～
ｔｏｏ ｔｉｒｅｄ ｔｈｅｎ ｆｏｒｇｏｔ ｗａｔ ｕ ｆｅｅｌ～

tired~~放工后，我塞车回家～９点～我四小时在车来回拉去到槟城咯～夸张的赛车～跑不快～康乐夜市，难怪～明天，希望卖到拉～
我算了出来，这个月我欠四张～my partner need 2more~today she got one,so she own one~tomoro she can do it~me??RM100 fly away~4pcs is hard to get n need to fight with slimming century n the 9.90slim~lol

hard n hard~~
hopefully god bless me~

should sleep after play candy!~~NITEXX