August 22

今天我和swee ling相依为命一个早上～
janice回HQ meeting~
一早我就到公司了～
然后她就有问我昨晚怎么样啊～
就聊天然后我真的被KC 的emoji吓到了～
现在的他 有点恐怖
昨晚看戏我们什么也没说啊
都静静的

我还特地戴着眼镜看戏～
没有特别
janice sit infront de couple sit~vern nt feeling well din join~
then me n swee ling one couple sit~then beside me is KC n His frens~
then start movie~i still press my phone~dint talk with him~when otw walk in to the cinema~even walk behind aso dint talk~nth to talk~
lol
then watch drama~non stop eat my popcorn~even with swee ling aso i diam n watch~
serious last night is i long time ago x step in cheras selatan de tgv~last edi few years ago~i remember last time with harry watch movie here~but tat time ok~
with tis macam pelik~nvm just normal fren watch ok la~n is my first time watch mv with janice n swee ling~
farewell~~TT
before movie start we eat lao you gui gui~then only buy popcorn de~
then hor he call me ask at where then meet i terus give back rm48 to him~then my am ask him just finish work ar?dah sampai lama ar?we sure we reach sin~XD
then i press my phone~nth pun press x lepas~lol
thx for wechat chat~then only i happy~i can laugh sendiri with phone compare to nth talk~lol
then hi n bye~in cinema he just ask me y i wear spec only~is a funny question lo~
lol

then swee ling tis morning ask me got feel or nt~look nt bad de~diam diam n good guy lo~
if ok mai try har lo~yesterday help u see jor ~ok de~u nvr try nvr know~she tell me maybe he fan xia fan xia u get used jor then x blh x ada line leh~i say no lo~even last night msg i pun x reply~really so sry~i nt sengaja~i know he say good night n put sticker~i morning see his msg only reply~good morning~
i dn hope to waste ppl time~for chase me is nt worth~serious~he can get a beetter~

swee ling non stop dn un y i look down myself~
i telling nt~just a feeling~she still ask me apa zaman~
we first time deep talk~
only we two~i tell her all my feel~long time no ppl chat deeepp til tis ~really~i need ear n listen me talk~
maybe too busy le~i miss my leng leng~i tell mai her~all i love de frens all in my heart things~actually she worry after she resign my work will be heavy n she say anythings can wechat her~
she really so good so many ideas n suggest me n telling her experiance to me~
so like her~y she resign~tomoro n sat is i last to meet her~she until 30-8-2013 but 26-30/8/13 i fully roadshow~canty meet her~sAD
really~bu she de~TT

then got tell sebelum ini de hal la,got tell out n she yuan lai protect me many things~xiang cry ~tears xiang out le~i know somethings~
n here i know she is the one good n heart really good from last time she edi make me gan dong~
i remember i last year birthday she make me cry aso~in phone~she play me~in the end we chat n tell out somethigns i feel so sad~it worst feeeling~but today my data really cant use ~even i home my wifi pun x blh connect dunno wat wrong~yesterday i miss adrian tot can watch tonton but my phone really x blh pakai~TT
so cant use~a while ada a while cant~sien jor~
on pc n listen sound of silence~then blog~
somethings i need talk out but nt write here~
im so sad~today 1000am i edi chg my passcode of phone~the time i chg is my passcode~
i dn feel like tell them the new passcode~
im so sad~tat y last time they say i still got things to keep secret~
原来单单打打就是为了这个
v that day edi i know she is wat type ppl aso~i know is good~but....somethings i cant accept~TT
心碎了
原来信任真的不值～
算了～
过去就算了
不要再想了
sifu刮痧后告诉我不要执著
要放开
我的心那天挂到那么红那伤都没有哭
原来身体的痛跟心灵的痛比不算什么
我告诉自己不能心疼
要爱自己多一点
做人模模糊糊过就好了
刚好moment有人post 一片看了心疼心酸的有意思的对白
～
我会的
可是现在想起心有作痛
我很怕会死

swee ling还说敢干去
想做什么去试试没有试过不知道
乘年轻想怎样就怎样
不然老来后悔～
+if tis job really cant earn money i stay here for?
is truw~i should think deeply~
now~~actually i dunno wat i need~i confuse~


today after am meeting back alot of work to do~now actually i headache~just now dn feeling wanna to sleep then listen tis song n blog~one hours pass like tat~~
tot open email to read blog but no that mood~wanna to delete it after read~
thx for advise ~i know wat to do~
really .....blur~nitex

July~~finally july come~XD

七月了
我不停的告诉自己忍耐忍耐七月份就好
一切会有定点，我做了一年一切为的就是这一个月～
我等你很久了～
昨天和他们出去喝茶没有join movie~
mood tired n nt really wan sit inside cinema n some emo~
last time de me sure wont reject de but today heart really i feel i cant~body weak~sick mood~
never get well n body condition~
old?tired?no mood~san fu~those feeling before i outing~
after i out wendys with them~all here~n our ypang work jor one month~time pass very fast when i was work all study~when i still working n never get wat i wan even saving nt much~all start work~my salar still maintain low~TT

好不容易可以说是公司在一年内帮我存了2k~虽然没有想到自己居然熬过了
在还没有confirm前我已经有做不下去的理由想法
和同事有摩擦 不知怎么觉得被正对老是挨骂
我永远不会忘记 我第一场roadshow 被骂后哭了 再那时我真的决定不要做了～
怎么知道我还是留下了
回想起是被骂一周年，7月10日？还是11日～
～fishdie 死我了~
bad memrory~很好的经验第三份工对我而言正式算工的～做一个礼拜就被骂不会忘记的～
现在可以说一年后大家的关系才好了他们也坦承过当初不希望多一个人～也对啦做工啊～
我为人直直的我知道会得罪到同事就像四月那个月我们的关系我足足瘦了1plus kg~lunch pun boh eat~那时候我没有怎样只有默默伤心～我可以怎样一定要忍～
回想起一切 我熬过一切 我壮如牛的说～哈哈哈～
七月了～
我总于等到了～
亲爱的大家我们七月见～
随心的！～不要有roadshow~lol
finally~~
i got my way~can say wan or nt~after it i will think deeply~now ~i aso nt yet get anythings~so wait n wait~hopefully tis month can get~~



July 2~Janice tis is the photo of my agreement~thx~love u~pls help me o~
she say will try n ask~tomoro manager meeting~thx

but some of them say boss will say tnc de~dunno y feel hati tak tanang~~

tomoro will msg n remind~TT
July should be a happy month~
this month if able n i got free i will day day type an essay here~blogger~
if nt only moment i edi happy~pos things~share wat happened on me~~


July 3 /manager meeting~
i have to do many things today~
sleepy can nap a while~~
waiting n waitng~tonight go aunty house~
aunty-cleaner daughter married~~
my asst manager after meeting then come back tell will tell me later then start briefing us~
then go bath n go aunty house~
i feel sejuk than air~lol
colleague aso said like tis~sad~~TT
emo~
emo~~
hope~~~
all gone~~wtfbbq~
lol
go aunty house~see the function~visit aunty house~how they make up n jalankan ucapan n the way siram air kelapa minyak or somethings~inside many food~all prepareing~
i have no feeling~on the way go time pun i x ada follow they car~just follow my heart n go~lost~~turn in taman~a bit scare de i know coz u never turn here~but at last turn n turn i call swee ling n vern~telling i lost they say they aso searching~aunty tell after sg ramal there turn in see canopy then reach lol~
ok la...saw 3688 jw car then folloe n i reach~
finally~~a while then they eat karipuf or wat de i no mood~go home~~angpao is rm100
~~follow majority n give more to aunty we know aunty spend a lot at her daughter wedding n we sayang aunty~
i glad to say after tis work i no need mop no need sapu lantai lap cermin no need wash toilet~iknow aunty here one day one hours cleaning salary only rm400 plus she go kajang only rm800 ~actually now salary like tis really nt enought tat y aunty old jor still need gotwo three diffrent place do cleaning~n tis aunty realy good la~
asst manager rm 350 vern rm300 sl rm250 i think~tat day say de~i terus terang only rm100~
lol


4july
emo~moody~dn wan to wake u p~我终算得到了交代 不一定圈数
看表现 老板娘还否认说irene有的meg?
对于这一切我死心了
曾经我很努力的为roadshow fight n fight~fight sales~roadshow target~wan let amy confirm me i go ts roadshow n fight one day 20 voucherr~i get it~
fight for confirm then after that chg commission~then less n less~per month got min 20 only got allowance~chg again become one month kena ada lima puluh~
really wtfbbqklfrklfjdhjgjkgsdjkdgjdfgjhgdfjjilakaaaacilakalol~tataluhjfkhjjkfjnhdfjfdjkjklpok~
我越想越多越不服气 闷闷地没有胃口没有心情～
swee ling问我我说想走～原因是不公平不守信用 虽然没有付出很大心血哦可是不甘心～
i hate tis feel~boh mood work~sleep ~~lol


5July
Blue friday~i think tis week boh roadshow~office x call~x arrange~as usual~~after tat nth special

6July
CC come~boh mood~
as usual~nth to type here~~
just on Pc n happy sunday come~~
tomoro go movie~yea~with my dear leng leng~XD
suka~~with them then only i happy~~


7JULY
HAPPY SUNDAY
~SWEET DAY~~
CHATTING ENJOY WARM LOVELY DAY~
yea~~
early go jin house n go klcc~then movie~bananassssssssssssss~XD
after that klcc lunch~yea~~sushi king~~
after that walk around~dinneer~~jin favourite toys banana~XD
mcd ampang~ks fetch~sweet~~
only my gang i suka let them fetch n fetch them~lovely sunday~
then sweeet talk~~happy moment~enjoy~~KLCC~~i drive there~yea
feel wan ye po~~XD
with them n drunk one time~XD


8JULY
normally after meet them then can hyperactive~haha
work~~
as usual~call customer~~
then courier service doc~~etc~~okok~~
after that normal job!~
fong gong~happy

9July~~
actually nt much special~my job lo~~
sometimes think dao my job very sien~
follow my 2k~she said august wor~~
sien~~

10JULY
Puasa~
yea~~
go manicure~
blue colour~chg mood~
happy
suke~~yea
really chg mood~
when i back to outlet office boys come~i tell i go see pasar ramadan open or nt~lol
thx jw them~
happy~she let me go out~thx
happy~~enjoy~~

11JULY~
Ramandan~tot we go pasar ramadan~but x go~many things wan do~envelop~
raya cards~start~~

write 500 sin~waWAWAwa..........xD
manys~~


12july~
Happy friday~
tonight go out celebrate sophia birthday~yea~~happy~~^^
haha~
i drive~we go mines~~yea~~three sister gai gai~~long time x ada gathering togehter~sweet^^
happy~lama x ada out~sad case~~since she work here more hard to out~lol
wrong intro gua~off day x ngam~
lucky got yumi~XD

day day friday pun dating~suggest a day~yea~happy~thx~
yumi come out yum cha at mamak with me only go home~
coz too early~~lol
we two get used late home~
maybe same area gua~lol
warm feel~thx ~~


13JULY
sat~work~
stress~~
tired~~call n call file~write n write~many things do feel~~lol
thx for da bao me nasi lemak~thx to lovely colleague~
AGM tell me she rec me a guy ask me on fb n accept~
ok~acceprt le frens request~she help me to press de lol~~
she tell me is good guy below 30 n single n got background etc~~
okok~know a new frens ok la~XD


14JULY
Happy Silver Valentine~
love all my leng lengs n sweeties~
lucky i got u all~~many happinest with u all~~
my blog non stop all emo things!~finally got happy appear~but dint transfer photo~if can i wan post n post many photoss of day here~lovely day~

is time to sleep~active^^


15July
monday blue,,,,,,,,,,
blue blue~
become sunshine morning~
nt bad days~
view nt bad xia~sky was blue~lol
8864 got adrian~
tonton.com~
at counter~~
happy~~XD

i easy to happy~after meet u all can maintain happy n hyper mood~~XD
cubic aso active~XD
suka cubic suka wechat~thx u all chat with me~lovely~~
if one day no one reply me i will sad sad de~six sense dao lol~~TT
think too much~老是觉得自己不配拥有幸福
害怕大家离开自己
太幸福的我要珍惜always emo think tis~sad~~
night time easy emo~lol

16July
yea~~happy day~campaign~
pnc tim~~
but is really happy~~yahoo.....freedom~
yea~~lovely~XD
all things can solve~lol

but a bit emo~thinking somethings~nitex time de me always like tat~fine lol~~
dn wan type here~~coz one years le...i scare....i ............................................

17July
daddy cook somethings for me~lol
thx daddy~~
i know i nt feeling well~~i know body condition bad~thx daddy~
heart nt feeling well~~say wan go check but scare lol~~
today tired~dn type much here~nitex

18July
mcd breakfast ~
asst manager sms jio breakfast~
go prima saujana~then she say no toys then she go bangi n ask me go warta there~
so i go there n queue~
when i reach i stand n queue in front of me got a guy~wearing rain coat~then ask me wan wear or not his motor got one scared me~
call jw ask where jor~they ask me queue sin coming~they go punch card~
yea~fast fast take my umbrella i got my umbrella every where~lol
then he bored coz haven open yet so keng gai with me~i just smile n answer few~he telling mana de x ada mana all queue tis n that~i tell ok la~i nt reaally crazy for tis he say he crazy~then last few aso ada collect i smile i queue for asst manager~
when they come asst manager bring big umbrella enough for three~then ask me go inside wait~she queue~then me n swee ling stand n wait~many ppl come~the guy chat with her~she call us~then we three stand there n play phone togheter~lucky got data~got phone~hhahha
sweet morming start~yea~~
breakfast togehtrer then treat aunty eat~haha
ha[ppy

gossip togehter moment reaally enjoy~tanggal coat with them~i sudah like frens with them if not i not dare only wear tube gua~maybe alll ladys n i learn some habits from them:?lol
XD

19July
dating with yumi~sweet~~yea~bought a clothes~
i suka~~the materials~wear=no wear~telling yumi when trying!~
tengok feel suka~then buy lo~
suka hati~
coz long time no buy things n cloths~jumpa a short boots~
rm59.90~but four inc~lol
x blh la~TT
give up lo~~x mau le~
haiz...
wan go gai gai with leng lengs when august take money~boots~yea~bag~happy~~
at last we two yum cha n enjoy~paparich non stop crazy photosssss~enjoy night~XD

20July~
outlet~~
tomoro meet leng lengs jogging~excited~today just work ba~
gambateh~~no chance reply~a bit busy~TT

when go home saw monkey~walaooooo~~scare me~

21July
Happy jogging day~615 wake~wechat sweeties~
then prepare n out~
yea~
we three jogging~first time~happy~~yea
sweat~happy~yea~
suka the feeling~
after jogging go breakfast~if week week like tis i sweet bao~happy~suka~warm~XD
melaka trip?excited~yea~~suddenly keng dao~wat ever~on~unpaid gua~haha
try ask yp plan~haha
lunch
nice~enjoy~
after lunch facial~enjoy~nt bad~relaz~XD
thx sl~~book sin lo 9/8 massage~maybe lai ye~lol
see how sin ba~XD

home~warm~
sweet~
happy~


22July super busy~raya card~wa....many need rush~~
after done tired~~heart really nt well~
scare i die early~thinking too much?over stress?rush dao no time go toilet aso~
first time so rush~TT
life~................
dn wa type here~dunno how to say~emo emo~~suan le...no one can help me aso~
tomoro roadshow le~~

23July
FRee calender inside got voucher pun x ada orang mau~
hard to buat sales~cold~san fu~~
asst manager call tomoro ot~wan done all raya cards~she go hq meeting dunno ada kena marah tak?sales x hit target~TT
nt much special~streess a lot ~boh mood type~lol
nitex


24July
All raya cards~done by today~ 1246 all mau done~
at last we done~8plus ~then mcd dinner~after that queue for minion~happy thrusday~原来有些满足感虚荣感是这样的~1st n 2nd so good feel~~haha
me n asst manager at here from just now looking fo ppl wen got ppl come we look n look~haha~no one queue yet~nine plus she go outside n sit~waiting to queue~then ada orang come she go infront tell the guy she queue here~then after i go toilet i pun start queue~hahah~good experiecne~satisfierd~enjoy~~with her capture photo~then she play her phone i play my phone~data~enjoy~lucky ada power bank~
she play til no battery le~super many ppl~telling swee ling~
she queue with her bf at seremban~haha~
then she telling me got reporter go there so many ppl go there~haha
then non stop wechat~yea
happy n feel excited~maybe coz queue first gua~x ada collect feel~just feeling syok~ikut angin ~the feeling gua~
0000 edi queue dao mana~x tau x blh explain~then we 1145 take jor number n order n donate or not~so we non stop capture photo~first time with my asst manager~haha~~ok ok la~happy~she most excited~i excited coz can watch liu zong yi lol~the manager chg ntv 7 to me~hahappy~XD
that y i enjoy tonight~only me n asst manager~n be the first n second~haha~most excited n capture photo~inside eating de customer pun ask us~so crazy i say ok ok la~my asst manager start explain n telling all the collection for son n she like aso~xD
then finish nuggets ~we go home~we park at drive thru there~susah mau out~stupid volswagen x mau let me out~cemburu i dapat beli~lol
my asst maager gan gan go~then i wan go time he move infront~non stop pijak minyak tekan minyak telling u i boh song~i aso very niu niu de~but he mati pun x mau reverse car let me go~
then i wait him go infront more bit bit~he ada space can move de he dn wan~then i scold inside my car~after that wira go infront only tis guy go infront a bit~my turn gan gan chu~very very 0.05pplus only near his ekor~i aso adjust n thinking wont langgar gua~scar a bit x apa lol~but i see dao is ok de~he super scare n look n look~i minyak n go~haha~
all ppl queue til long long part~i can back le~the feel syok~sudah crazy gila~XD
happy~lol

good night~telling mumy~she lol~~then i go sleep le~XD


25july
saman leh~
at kajang pun blh kena saman leh
then budak motor accident~
scare me ~~
reeally~hati i still x tenang~
heart nt really feel ok~
sei lo~
how ?wat wrong with me~
saman lucky got janice ~she take to her husband ask her husband help me paid~
really thx to her~~

26July
roadshow tesco~
no ppl
no sales~
sien~~
TT
got know a leng lui~ok la~
she come n talk with me~hong ting ting~
fb very leng~after make up really lain~~
all boys like tat type gua~~
the make up n her stlye~
wa...sweet look la leng look la~
n she say bf is model~so good~~
lucky she come n talk with me ~if nt aso sien~
cold~no customer
~~wuwuwu........very hard to do sales at tesco~really
somemore is holiday lagi susah~
then.......friday night yum cha~
with my chan look~after work terus go paparich prima saujana~
then drink hot honey lemon~chat n chat~
sry to say i after work not really got topic~lol
is a bit sejuk feel~lol
10.30plus i pun mau home n rest~
so around one hour plus yum cha~
ok la...his look still blh tahan la...just wont is i like tat type lol
i dn like too lao shi de...too zai pun cant~
if normal be frens ok de~i can say wo bu pei ni~hopefully no next time lo~

27July~
TT
roadshow again~
very san fu~
emo~
coolddddd...~
really whole body pain~
wat wrong with me~TT
very hard to pass today~
sales ar~~TT
leng lui jio dinner togehter~
last day jor~
eat with her at food court~
tomoro happy day~
haha

28July
Lovely day~
sweet day~
happy~~xiang put photo to show~
but lazy put cable~
morning we jogging la sweet breakfast ar~
then go branded fair~
after that yum cha~then we eat sushi ~Rm2 only zheng ~then pasar ramadan cheras mahkota n prima saujana~then my house~eat n eat!~
my sweet offday n happy day^^
yeah~the feeling so good~from sunrise to sunset~lovely day~
sweet to have u all~^^muacksss
recenlty x hugs hugs~~but really sweet mood~
happy

29July
go home dad ask me drink soup~
he cook for me~
yer....the taste i dn like~
but i finish it~
thx daddy~~

30July
work with blue sky n heart blue aso....
lol
many work xia but ok la~~just tired~~

31July2013

today edi last day~end of july~
should i happy?
welcome august?
Today go car wash n pasar ramadan~happy day~
sweet
~
thx~~
really~enjoy n happy day~
muacksss...

emo~soat throat~

今天一早起身不舒服了
喉咙痛痛的，吃了药口甘甘的～
很久没有一早吃中药了～证明我很久没有调养
可是那喉咙不是一般的痛
我的爱歌我也没办法哼唱～
结果到了keep slim我差一点迟到
打了卡，开个门后 钟就响了～
差一点～vern说我今天很早哦～哈哈啊～
我也觉得@@
很累～赖床到八点～哈啊哈～

然后jw突然拿出电话电话里有疯狂猜成语～
出来找我们帮忙～
我没有很有声音也没有那个很想玩的意思
对这些要用脑的游戏我似乎放弃了
对于不带电话出门我也开始接受了

每天的每天我只玩了line pop就睡觉了～
今天下午如果早打完电话可以小眠小眠～always ask vern go 小眠小眠～xD

then 一半时在研究难题时有顾客来了～
appt 1pm now only 11.30~ok lo~my con~accept la~
then i go inside help her to fill up form~leave my data on~too suddenly i x sempat off lagi~
then serve tea for her~after that jw go n cons~
the customer say tunang hantar so tunang tunggu dekat luar~i dah buka aircon de con room 1~tapi dia keluar~ask me got wifi ar?i say no o~then stand on there n search~ada secret recipi tapi x blh pakai~kat mana ya?i cakap dekat depan behadapan jalan besar~jauh of coz cant~~
lepas itu~tanya i mengapa ya~
mengapa x ada wifi ya~lol
here is slimming salon all customer come n lie on bed do treatment ma~wan wifi for?
boss wont so good let us got wifi n online~
normally go to room 3 n stick wall can detect sebelah wifi~
but i nt use it aso~using data~
then he walk in n out~wan talk like tat n ask to open door~
then i quick open door n start calling customer~
feel tired n sleepy~
but i cant sleep~

ishh,,,yesterday promise wan finish N til Z de customer~cant  lazy~
slleepy n tired n soat throat~need call a bit sien lol

but ok la~start call n JW ask me go buy ligh~the bulb terbakar again～
下毛毛雨～淋雨后 很想睡～
不能稍微躺下
以后要躺都不可以了～715开始有新的美容顾问来
到时候没有了电话没有了小眠小眠～稍微躺在桌上都不能了～伤感的一天～突然～
不想讲话 今天的我可以打字发泄已经很好了～
原本想到一切都改变了
一切不像以前了
我们怎么了？
寂寞伤感的~
可是又有种冲动
人总是脆弱 尤其人心
谈心 分享 闲聊 感觉不同了
突然几天来忙碌的人生好像过了一周年～
lol

也许喉咙痛的关系加上心口痛～所以没有心情～
午餐时间
take order le~i go out alone~drive n go da bao~~
this time sweeling come out when i start car prepare go~
she ask me y x wait her~
actually i tot i go out alone n da bao de~
thx to her dn let me alone~~

normally if mcd i go out drive thru de~thx to her acc me~even i dn wan talk me i got chat with her~she say i wont let u alone de~sweeT!~she say she nt like JW will sot suka out sometime n dn out~lol
anyway thx to her~
coz of her i eat more~i eat one mchicken n one large porridge~i tell her i quite hungry lol~
then she ask me 你是不是人哦哦～是啊～
突然想吃～一set plus large porridge around rm11~but i wan eat~i soat throat but say dao mcd aso i follow majority n idea was support by me~lol
thx o~we parking n go buy～
funny leh~很想我是宠物似的我排着队他拉我头发回来说那里是order le waiting de lane~quee here~XD
haha~~我很讨厌人家突然弄我头发可是窝心的例外哦～

突然觉得有他很好～
可惜，八月尾～我知道他很棒我很疼我像昨天那样～
715又有新人来大家都变得严肃～
我知道～日子好过的就只有现在～
微笑珍惜现在吧～

大腿那里真的很痛上下车时 心口那里也很痛～
忍啊～
喉咙痛
吃午餐时我都静静的sweeling也是～
jW说我很难想象你怀孕时要吃什么？我无奈～
她说她怀孕都没有吃那么多～哈哈

我吃完了喉咙狠痛下吃糖果～lol
告诉过自己要照顾身体可是我还是失败了～
很累
真的很累
躺在桌子上了
一倒就睡着了~
太累了～短短20分钟～
硬撑起来～还是很累～倒会下去～
顾客按门铃了～我起来开门
她还说没有看到我～哈哈～我说被遮了～哈哈～

after that i start call n call~
finally 5.45 i call til Z le~thx god~
i done~~
then JW n VErn come out~
tell me must call dao Hawa~tomoro customer  n this noon ................................................................................................................i edi call n write NA~
haiz....TT

tomoro friday le~emo~tired~~
actually i feel wan sleep~but tonight de home decor serviove i suka~lol
last time i always catch it time n watch de now if got time only watch~~
so tonight sleepy but i still wan watch lol~
my stlyle~
sturborn~~XD

just saw cubic~
sue jio sing k~too far n too tired~
mom aso wont let me go out~
that day edi ask me sleep early n rest more~TT
no chooice lo~
blog done~really less talk today~~take medical~TT.
nitex n off Pc~
only i over over time x post moment~good night~~

listen na xie nian again~n orange de feng ge~~

After tat........

260613

 一早睡醒头痛
晕晕的
接电话没有气的～
vern call me n ask me go fetch her today~
then i zap myself n go fetch her^^
after fetch we direct go office n chat~
i tell her i go guat sha yesterday n where i go~
she tell me yesterday no electric back early n say the bill office ask us got pass back or not~lol
my fault again~later need wait office call n i tell agfain~
i remember last two week things lol~
coz the bill we dint courier back office dint paid bill?lol
wat a funny joke early morning~
then start work~
i not feeling well~
aftet 11plus i lie on my counter n nap~sleep jor half hours~
really so tired n san fu~

when ...........
i wake time my asst manager edi sit beside me n do her things!lol
dunno how long she sit i dint realise~
faster take out yelloow card n wan call customer~
1145 plus i think i call 1230 de cons~
NA n VM~
then i go toilet n sit back beside her wan call customer le~~
she say wan eat what edi late dunno got fish or nt~
i wan eat porridge today~
normally eat mixed rice~today no feeling wan eat even hungry~
porrodge~
all shock when listen i wan eat porrdige~
scare i x full~
thx to all~i really nth~got show my leg part to swee ling n vern~
they say so serious~kena seksa lol~
i laugh~then continue my job~call yellow card~~

tea break~~play大财主～以后有了新的consultant~after july come we cant sleep cant play must 24 hours stand by fresh n smart to work le~
enjoy mai few day~~
after one round we play n am lost tis time~XD
but we cancel that rules le~just jk only~dn wan water le~play for fun~suka tis moment~after swee ling resign n go sure will miss it~then continue work~

thx swee ling~
today they need to replace back yesterday back early coz no electric~asst mangaer ask i done all things n let me go back~
thx swee ling aso~she say anythings find her~lol
somethings de~i dint type out ~but i feel warm in my heart~thx~muack~~
they nt really suka use muack~they say geli~XD
n i always kacao them act cute n manja ~
is nt good i know~
the world is realited de~~

then go home i type blog here~n leave it n watch ntv7~
terar out when de pei n le ye that part lol
is time to sleep~

today blog just wan realise somethings~but i nvr type it out~
i need be strong n brave~~
good night lol

my leg n body that redness getting dark n look seriois lol~~
headache n need sleep early~
no post moment tonight~i cant alive without my moment~but i really......................

搿mixed n match jor de emo post~lo

心情那么七上八下
情绪有种不平伏的感觉～
每次的每次
我都很害怕自己孤掌难鸣
孤立与世隔绝的感觉
有时自己会放空自己但都是一会儿几小时一天
这次真的觉得纳闷了
碎了
融了
死了

分离是我最怕的东西
脸上带着的微笑只是掩饰～
我最厉害就是忍
状如牛啊

当swee ling每次叫我学这个收这个以后我不在了你要知道这在哪里
这是社么
这些东西啊
等等

听了总不是滋味
虽然相处没有很久
但是很多时候让我感动的是她
坦白说一进工时觉得他说话直很伤人
久候原来最放得开是他
其实我还好
卸下了伪装后或许我真的很弱
什么都不是

记得曾经她说过有什么我来扛我说的！
那时候真的感动到我快哭了～
虽然那时候是office叫我开的啦
他刚好在听到
如果她是男的会迷死很多女生
哈哈

还有很多次我做错了他都没有正面怪我～
会说出来
我也知道
现在只能尽力满足做好她希望的事了～
希望我不让她失望

after company trip she will  resign le.TT
to be continue..sleepy night~emo mood~lonely feel~
what a suck feeling~stress come when next roadshow start~just back outlet n know it~TT.......






看回这一片打到一半的blog~想接下去什么的，那天的心情已经不是现在得了

我就是做东西做一半后没有收尾的人～
昨天难得地拿了replacement leave replace sunday 23-6-13,一早就醒了可是赖床赖了很久～
11点多洗澡后 准备出门
ah bi发高烧了 要带他去看医生
我也本来打算看中医啊
身体很差很累脸肿肿的～昨晚和yumi胡闹了一夜
凌晨接近3点才睡～
昨晚yumi n sophia yum cha with me then yumi come my house~
we keng about her house n spend~
realy so good~while young got own bussiness~
me?i was nth even i work for five years~TT
then suddenly got mood wan to chg styrle n capture photo~
我们就是那么随性的两个人
38乐颠颠疯疯狂玩闹了一顿
我真的很开心
稍微放开自己一下下
samsung拍出来的照片我很梦幻～
最后还加两个夹子版两个的感觉
以前我就很喜欢只是中学时已经被说扮可爱所以不敢绑了～
我和yumi还约定找一天化妆打扮走不是自己风格的造型出门
期待有那一天
平时很难约
加上我很少休息啊
一星期才一天
很难下～
不过还不错的提议
哈哈
这只是年轻不做老了就没有那种感觉要了吧？

结果我很累驾车去打油
然后出去yulek de pantai 看婴儿专科
ah bi进去后哭闹很厉害
可怜
看到他都心疼了
我溜出去问下body check de details
so expensive~
better i check at kajang britania hospital lol
然后帮ah bi record video,when doctor 塞屁股～发烧很厉害了～可怜

之后我去看同善中医
我很久没有调养身体了
身体健康差了
赵医生还说为什么头发少了那么多？
天啊～我脱发未免太严重了～没有办法救了吗？
伤心啊～我之前头发不会脱那么多的～最近我也觉得～
然后血压也低了～
之前高的，又不够血了～
还有我很累 原来热气加熬夜影响的
还有不要洗澡洗那么久 头发要吹干
我的体质也差了
皮肤铭感了～会加皮肤的药进去我的药水～还有拿了药粉，吃完药水就吃药分～
她依旧年轻漂亮 医师就是医师～
妈妈不要看得 我硬硬要她看～
她的手也是关节问题不好
顺便看哦～不要也得要 我就是固执啦～结果我赢了～
爱你啊，妈妈～～
还特地陪我去师傅那里查下运势
师傅很深功力
问了我的时辰八字就问我是不是心胸口那里闷热很辛苦
我那天真的roadshow sunday metro point心绞痛 呼吸困难 我以为自己压力大
之前也是有这样子
原来有轻微柱塞～师傅问我忍的痛吗？我说可以～就帮我刮痧～痛是一定的～不过不刮出来 要做通波仔手术如果严重 怕怕～
生命可贵
那么年轻有病～悲哀啊～
然后哦师傅叫我多吃营养食物 补补身体 要让血液循环～
我的心今天一直闷闷的
想逃离一切
心很寂寞不懂怎么了 很孤单
自己也不知道怎么了
谢谢师傅
我想着很多东西 我刮完了 眼泪却没有往下流 某些心疼时比着更伤心吧？
不想说了 碎了 累了～

还好某些很痛的部位师傅又跟我聊聊天 就这样熬过去了 真的很疼 妈妈看着我刮痧
我真的不哭 带着微笑 挂完了～谢谢师傅～
希望一切没事就好～
挂完就好了～真的希望自己健康
很怕自己健康不好
不喜欢懦弱的自己
闷闷的
心口很疼
很痛
也许是刮痧上半部的皮痛吧？
分不出哪里痛了
可以呼吸顺畅就好了
不拍照不知道有多红
谢谢师傅辛苦您了


到家前我打包了很久没有吃的roti canai~lol
突然想吃
过后就真的要听话戒冰辣花生少炸了～要健康！值得～
到家时，姐姐－baby mummy edi here n waiting~when i almost home i got whatapps jie jie we soon home~tat y she faster tat us~XD

then i finish eat i go back my brother room on wifi~play line lol~
i suka line pop~
actually wan play candy but i too tired n no patient~no mood~need some one help me pass that level n i can play fresh de level only i will continue play gua?lol
x ada otak le~
haha

then feel sleepy~
lie down n capture some photo~

e-leng zai still zat me at my moment~since i finish roadshow long time x contact le~XD
sweet~lol
frens always is meet only close n x meet just a stranger even like stranger pun x consider lol~

tat y i tell my mom i suka all my leng leng~with lc jin yp ks sue ikki sl bibi this friendship is from secondary~i was lucky to have them~
sad case~
suddenly miss teach me account nnchemistry de sifu~ex lokman aso~senior level~
dint have fb account~forgot her name cant contact back~sad~~
then think dao may kit n wan ling last time best friens~then carrie kar hui ar hoong yea....then brother gang somemore kok mum ar,zx ar,ah boon~
fate aso~maybe after guat sha wing wing~whole body tired~is time to sleep le~~
think dao many things
~emo again lol~~

i know nt good~but i know soon can meet my leng leng n recharge battery~good night~
wing n blur~tomoro need back office~~

Emo~~

一早蒙烟茫茫，看到比云顶还猛～有够蒙的～～
很晕很晕～
然后很emo~~真的很emo~~
压力很大，今天要有6张不然就要跑mobile roadshow~
TT
这种天气这种心情 我真的很辛苦～
压力～大的可以压死我？
甚至我还想到什么时候我会突然失神而死？或者心脏病爆发？神经错乱？真的大吉利是阿～
噗～
pui~
不懂是不是看家有超男看多了幻想能力很好～想了几种很安详的死法～
脑部有问题哦？
我到底怎么了？
很想暂时睡下抛开一切烦恼
离开所有压力～
我到底怎么了？
又开始哭了？
够了@@
烦了～～
累了～～碎了～～
无奈人生日子就是要过～


我想今天是我最倒霉的一天～
我尽量让自己看起来不那么勉强～
serve customer~smile~~
but all is 'wan kat' de customer~
前提是不要买又要问 问了又不要 不然还把传单推回放去你的柜台～
我真的够了～
受气啊～
尤其突然杀出一个顾客不要拿传单，走开后倒退回来骂我？
虽然我增经也被顾客骂过 其实roadshow always happend~自己知道习惯就好。。。不要在意 毕竟那么多美容院 一定有不爽的顾客～只是 ，之口气～
她倒退回来说u orang punya promosi memang sangat menarik ~tapi pergi sampai sana u orang maki i sampai betul x anggap i orang manusia~terutama kg tak turun u ini slim ar apa apa slim punya orang ingat hebat sangat u orang bukan manusia ar maki orang itu la ini la apa pun la x pergi tratment x blh la makan x blh apa keep slim~i dah pergi banyak tempat dah~sama je~keep slim ni~~then can feel her voice-suara dah meningkat~i jawab balik kak betul pergi keep slim kajang keh?she answer i pergi keep slim la i ada package la,dekat kajang sana~keep slim
wtf~~i betul marah ni..many salon at kajang ok~nt only keep slim la~make sure  u scold ngam ppl~she say dah banyak la apa la~finish scold n go~hello ~u hormone x balance o~shit~~

Emo plus kena with orang like tis i edi boh mood~~mata dah merah la~but i wont cry out~fuck~~
then non stop serve customer~
non stop giving out leaflet~
i wan sales~i need sales~
in my heart i know if i no sales ~
no hit~i have to go  mobile roadshow alone~
i don wan~
but i have no chooice~
i have to~
fight~
no any feeling~
even terhantuk jari macam bengkak i still no feeling~
even is was painful~
hungry?i aso no feeling wan to eat~serious~
around 1 plus  still no sales~go n buy rice n eat~RM9.90!~walao~~a little bit rice n cheese chicken~fucking expensive~
i no idea wan to eat wat just follow feeling n stop n buy this~coz new stall~metro point my favourite ban mee edi zap tat y now nth to eat~
starbucks?x ada tat mood~snowgurt?i got think  wan buy n eat but my body too weak n hard to breathes today~heart aso like abnormall today dunnno wat wrong~scare eat jor cold think i will suffer~TT
give up even i know this two things at mpoint is my favourite i eat wil happy a bit~but now reallynt a good timing~
sometimes will dreeam ppl sayang me take care me tell me dn wan work aso ok~but in real i hate it~i know now wat can i do is work hard n find more money for my future~
i cant be like tat cant be tooo weak~i must strong~independent~
i know many ppl say i dunno tis n tat very cha la~
i know i cant~
june edi i nvr go learn anythings~nvr upgrade myself~with blank ~how i wan to chg job?
if resign ?wat can i do?
heart die~dying~~
at tis time,i take out my phone~half battery gone~~
i wechat Tammie ,tell her i got no sales~until now~~i scare~
i know she work at outlet but i still doing the same things wechat her!~
she help me jia you～she say stilll early~can geh~
ask me go upstair de flat market n sell~~
i say binding there aso nt much ppl when i go upstair toilet time~~she say can geh~night time~~
thx for her supprt~~
last night she edi give me a way to solve the problem~thx to her~if nt she think dao idea i think i will more suffer~~but the term n condition is i own how much i paid n buy n keep~thx to her~~really~~
it was hard~i know~she more understand~she know sunday is the hardest to sell it~~coz all come with family~~
i know~~according to our experience~~plus metro point is the place we always zero n no sales~~wan get elevan voucher at two days?if u able to get~u edi very lucky n good~~
i admin i hope i can get n i admin i nt good luck such as ppl think~i know my luck at roadshow was poor~~TT
god bless me~~
thx god~~really~if can get today sure is god bless me de~~i know~~

你知道为什么吗？因为一开始就被人骂？接下来不会有好事的～～
当我才看看钟2点30出～有点害怕～彷徨 ~突然听到天使的电话~这声音有点温暖，听到她的声音我们 不常聊电话 但熟悉的声音 感觉很舒服～很释怀～突然很幸福，我也不是很熟悉 帮不到你～TT
短短的两分钟，我幸福的 话不多情绪不好但心里是温暖的 ～只可惜没有帮得上忙～我是被需要的吧?我有用吗？我很怕我在乎的一切人与事 瞬间遗忘了我～毕竟做工后我常会被世界遗忘～哪怕有没有我都不重要吧？迟点有个新的consultant~到时候就不太会需要我了吧？我的价值只在？？？？？
我真的很怕～今天的情绪很不稳定 我哭了～泪水流出来了 无声无息的 赶紧搽干了继续派传单～
也许看着想着自己的转变。。。越做越凄惨吧？
以前的风光 现在的？算了～～
笑一笑，怎知到～被人shoot~lol,i sangat gemuk keh?lol...then i smile n say facial...bt tat time she edi move on~i know i know~~i must get used~tis method i train so long~almost one year roadshow i still somethings can 释怀～
我好胜心很强 自我追求完美 喜欢达到目标的快感～
最近牛了很多～突然想念牛牛～那天的心情和现在？差别？很大～
伤心的时间过得很慢，6点了～一张都没有～我完了～
自己说服自己过不到了算了注定的～
mobile roadshow ok de~心里酸酸的～决定不吃晚餐～
不是折磨自己 我不是这种人～只是不想吃～任性最后一次吧
楼上flat market close~day end~nt much ppl le~n i go upstair toilet saw nail point superviser~she said me u very sien o?look ur eyes so sleepy~i smile n tell ya lo...she dint realise ?i got make up,lucky just now tears nt much~
i can cry twice in a days~
first time tears out n second time when customer ssaid me tegur me i cry out...sit at my booth my chairs my mood my heart my emotion then cry he he ...a while n auto stop lol
is public~~just release a bit aso ok le~
now this tears out again since i type this blog~i know after done this blog i sleep n tomor will be better~i believe~~

之后，今天怎么了～我还遇到之前幼儿园的学生～zhi kee...cute girls~pretty le~~叫我老师了～还有她婆婆～
微笑后走了，我变了 但还有人认得我～太好了～18 岁的我 和22 岁的自己~感觉自己真的老了
oops 6.45 le....n i was lucky~thx~one mixed voucher out when i slice to unlock my phone~dint release dint read msg n i write le my first mixed voucher today~thx god~thx~~thx to this indian~thx to her bf~thx for paid money to gf~thx~this kind of guy really good~sometime i jelly~tat day my outlet aso got one husband walk in n tell wan buy package for wife~sweet~really............wan give surprise to wife~so good~~
tat day  start my emo~oh gosh,three day edi~~stop it stop it really~
之后，后面卖鞋子的indo ask me can i bank in for u？i betul betul nak tapi x ada duit? i x dare ~serious~if i give u voucher n u dn paid me~i wechat tammie~
dunno y i feel so sry ~distrub her~
at last she tell me dn~dn believe tis kind of ppl~impossible no rm 10 as deposit~she show me rm4 only i tell~
she say ok de ask the indo go paid at outlet Rm29.90 n i keep the voucher for her~she wan go kajang outlet so i pass voucher to tammie?
ask n ask at last customer say ok then say x ok~
feel x blh percaya~~but i dint give her any thigns n ok la~
just a try lo~if go then i no nneed put so many voucher here~
now i own five n i buy sin need Rm150 le~n if she wan then can out one sin~
but nt til 9.30 i wont back de~who know izit got ppl again~
try n try my best~~
dn hope to use the way ~hope can out to customer!~really~~
suffer~~tension~~stress~~
really~~i hate tis feel~
if i nvr try this job i really tot it was easy but always until end of the month i need hit or fight target really san fu
outlet la roadhsow la~~
haiz...最后，遇见以前在esteen的顾客～
我手的顾客～那个空军～
mr lim n ms lim~1499 n 1500
i think~~不记得卡号但是我的顾客～尤其是她的老公，要我洗的 曾经赞过我的～还洗到睡了～那个顾客我不会忘记的～可是他对我笑了很久还喊我irene~之前在esteenn做的～aiyoo,见不到你我不好啊～我笑了～打从心里笑了～我知道之前在可悲苛刻外我有一群很好的顾客～难得相遇～ms lim 过来和我聊天还问我做么不做了～我说人要进步看看社会，薪水还可以见识比较多～所以告诉她做了11个月～我也笑了～哈哈～
然后聊到esteen 她说没有固定的员工～helen和我都跑了～经验好的都不做了~笑笑～点头后我把helen de name card 给了她～
一切看她了，顾客要的话会找他的～
mr lim say wed operation wor,i ask him take care~~
见了他们巧遇后kajang真的很小～
世界很奇妙～一天里面我看完看回我的过去，很巧~
1st job student 2nd job customer~now?
什么跟什么自己都不清楚～
回忆过去～
以前的我单纯很多轻松很多
现在三天两天发烧的 生病的～
身体差了～感觉拉～
要作身体检查了，是时候了～
回家了，十点？我疯了～拼过头了～
没有人怎么努力都没有用的~尽力了～
我不自己？
onefm lol~~
really i nt myself leh~~
nt bad listen when u was sad~lol

is time to let my tears stop~i sit infront pc one hours ？？
当然也累了，痛了~够了～算了～～过去了～晚安～～


人要进步也要知足，一切看开随缘吧～
希望天空明天恢复正常有着我爱的日出与日落～
睡醒又会是全新的自己～

June roadshow-PICC,wedding fair

7 June 13
PICC wedding fair roadshow
1st day of my roadshow~PICC
there was a nice place~
from the way to PICC i saw a nice view~
blue sky~
nice~XD

then very hard~
no sales~
roslind got two le~~
then we fight n chat~
long time no see her-putrajaya front desk~
she jus married at sarawak~she is orang iban~~
bf was chinese~~
then nt yet sign n register~
only married at sarawak long house~
nice~~
sweet~.

here many malay couple n sweet ppl come~dah tunang~dah nak kahwin~
nak cetak kad jemputan~
nak ambil gambar
nak pakaian~
everythings~nikah ar,canopi ar.......
so many ppl xia~
register for married edi?wan ask for facial but end of year only married n voucher only valid two month~
many ppl just ask n go~
no sales~

lucky~at last got one~my partner say own me de return me~~
im so disappointed~about here~we really target one day ten voucher here~
before come i really happy n excited~~
tell my asst manager tis month i wan 50sales~
really sad about thhe sales~~emo~

i drive today~
my partner no sales~we cold n tired le~go back sharp~ppl zap thing we zap thing~XD
go home!~~

1st day nt really know the way~


8 June 2nd day of roadshow~PICC

thx Tammie fetch~~
today Tammie get a lot sales~~
11 voucher per day~
she cover me three~i think if wan only my sales then really cham le!~
today i got five sales~three is her sales~
really thx a lot~~she return me last month de~
n she get a lot sales today ~
good things happen~
happy~~XD

actually is emo mood de~
coz dissapointed about tis place~
wedding fair leh~
previous fair we can get eight n above per day~
now?really less jor~~

Roselind de bf-should said husband come~sweeet~they two go see wedding photo album~sweet~
they survey n thinking which one suit~~XD
i hope i can have my album aso~
but i dn hope to wedding~
only wan album~
wedding~
gaun~
i really like the bridal s dress~
each girls hope  n  dream to wear~
from small i like ~lol
dream i have my own shop~~XD

9June PICC wedding fair

Last day~~
sick day~
early morning 6am wake
really nt feeling well~
after go toilet~
redness~
skin allergic
walao~sibeh itch~
wait til 9 am go see doctor~
then..
eat jor medicine~~
go work~~start today roadshow~
we hope last day better~
using wifi for this three day~
ok la~~at least done this three day roadshow~~
nite time wan close booth~
ayie come~~
at last i get four~~
but this four they wan come late n i special put end of the years expired date~
feel somethings wrong~but i need sales~TT

happy day~
end roadshow~~ 
stress over until dint take medicine~
only morning before work eat til now~got itch~~really but tahan~~
lucky done n pass~
tomoro will be good day?nitex